i've moved!

bye blogger!

here, if u're interested.

it's been a month since i last posted and nothing seems to have changed except for the same undying love...for shopping.

ntu photo submission (screwed up photo) and medical examination are finally over. idk why but these kinda things always make me nervous.
and yes im sick of getting fuglier than usual photos stamped permanent on my ids/passports.
i went for the medical check today, starting on an unpleasant note. how unpleasant?
imagine parents hollering and grabbing the campus maps out of each others hands. reprimanding me for my slowness lateness and irresponsibility yada yada u get the drift.

ntu is rather huge for the direction-senseless me. i hope i wont get lost on the first day.
i always get lost somehow. when i was in primary school i got myself changing to p.e attire in the boys' toilet. not surprising to walk out finding two boys staring at me. not surprising to roll my eyes up and find out that the sign shows a little boy in shorts.
and yes i always like to recount how i lost my way in an ancient stinky public loo when i was young. if u havent heard that yet i would love to tell the story yet again to u my dear friend.

rite rite back to the medical check- my eyesight is deteriorating like mad. i couldnt see most of the letters even WITH my specs on. urine test and x-ray was...simple. i was thinking of more complex analysis but oh gosh the x-ray only took 2 seconds? but the filiphino nurse was like damn snappy and nasty. just like CRT. BLEH i hate her, she's the only reason i'll quit my job.

met mayqi and cheryl at the medical centre too! thank god i finally found ppl in the same course as me (: (: (: yay !

off today and tmr! not working is shiokness.
i hope i can curb my spending. i keep wanting to buy clothes, accesories and makeup.
maybe i was too deprived of girly stuff in the past, now its back with vengence, full-fledged.

and yes i so want a nice camera. that takes photos with a vintage feel.

this top is so cute i dont mind getting one in every colour !

oh no im really turning into a food junkie and a fat pig!
im forever thinking of food and craving for munchies D:

rite now on my list of "TO-EAT" are:

1) Waraku de Pasta,
2) the korean combo from JP Kopitiam,
3) mini toons gummies
4) subway Cheese Steak n cookies!!!
5) KFC! ( just saw the coupons in the mail this morning)
6) ajisen
7) lamb/beef steak!
8) mom's fried beehoon
9) mr bean's soy icecream
.
.
.
.
and the list tends to infinity!
oh man oh man, i think at this rate i'll be eating huge portions for breakie tmr morning....

yuki has gone home !!!!!!!!! NOOOooooooooooooooooOOO...

yuki is a shih tzu who came in with a huge gash on her cheek right under the eye, and the wound was maggots infested.. ouch. after op and stitching up she healed well, and was such an obedient n lovely dog i found myself spending more and more time with her during my lunch breaks.

just look at her man, once she's famaliar with me, she totally treats me like her personal sofa. all i need to do is sit down with legs crossed and she jumps up onto my lap already. whats more she'll step all over till she finds the perfect comfy spot, and demand for a belly rub :)


yuki hinting: tummy rub please!
she's probably the first dog to be so obedient as to tolerate the Elizabethan collar and would allow us to slip it on her without fuss. good girl yuki!
stitches still visible under her eye. ouchie.


yuki lying by my side (: she looks uber cute in this pic!


yuki with stitches off le !


yuki and me, friends forever. hope u'll miss me, aka ur sofa!

i have no idea why im double posting even though i have nothing much to blog about. this is random maxxx.

1. im mildly peeved by how the guy voice on Bejewelled says 'Time Up' instead of 'Time's Up'. not that its grammatically wrong.
2. & also how his 'Incredible' sounds like 'Terrible' hahahaha.
3. i dunno why but i like typing mostly without capital letters.
4. and my brother just mentioned that i type without punctuations. oh really?
5. actually im more irritated by my slow internet connection. nth seems to load.
6. i still havent decided whether to go for the ntu 'getting to know ur prog' session. application due thurs D:
7. i miss army boy when is he going to call n is he able to call tonite at all!!!!!
8. i have a million things to tell him and i hope he will have enough time to listen to me rant on forever.
9. i srsly need a new mobile since my current one has a delete button that operates on its own.
10. for that i mean, it deletes my messages unexpectedly, deletes my texts when i try to sms, deletes my photos, deletes whatever it manages to delete when i nagivate.
11. a new phone is expensive.
12. uni fees are even more expensive.
13. i have nth to wear to uni.
14. i dread going uni.
15. i need to learn bio.
16. i always visit online blogshops but i have never gotten to buying any D: I WANT TO.
17. gosh there's this blogshop which updated! here i come!

three days back in malaysia were nothing short of misery. fell sick almost immediately after the first night, fever and sore throat, struggling through all the late night rituals with barely five minutes intervals in between. kneeling, praying, kneeling, praying, crying, grieving...i still remember getting down on both knees and making my way on the sharp and uneven gravel surface into the house. i did not remember the pain. i only recall fighting the urge to cry, when i finally saw his face in the casket. dad said he went peacefully. indeed, his face was of that of serenity when one is asleep. for that im thankful. dont really feel like talking about this anymore...and thanks for all the birthday well wishes, though it dint suffice to last till 1200 before the dreadful news came.

finally back at home. the coach bus ride home was irritating, made me feel guilty for taking my dad for granted. he was the one who had always been giving up his sleep to drive us back home. and for the journey back to Ipoh last sunday, he had gone without sleep for two days alr. taking the coach back had many inconveniences. hate the aircon that is perpetually on, on full blast. if they turned up the temperature it would have saved them money, and saved us money. seriously they should have thought of it. the many stops in btwn at customs meant fitfull sleep, and dragging the luggage around and beating the crowd was no fun.

opened my email to find out that i was offered a place at NTU for my second choice, Biological Sciences. whew finally. im kind of worried about future prospects but nth matters more than making the future work for me than lament at how bleak it is. still finding out about study loans and stuff. relief is overwhelmed by anxiety in no time. hope i will be able to settle it asap instead of procrastinating and kiv-ing.

kind of reluctant to go back to work once the lazy bones take over. have to go back tmr in any case, took too many days of unofficial leave alr, must be more responsible. speaking of lazy, my bedroom is in an entire mess contributed by unpacking and accumulated clutter. shall see if my determination is strong enough to bring about order by tonight.

missing the army guy and is still bitchy about the lost of the precious sunday tgt. hope times flies and it would be the weekends soon. nj syf coming, jiayou jnrs!

my posts are getting more and more incomprehensible. ponning gp has its cons.

i was just about to blog about today. my birthday.
when my dad received news that my grandpa passed away.....

now my dad is deperately trying to contact my mom, who is away on a trip to Mt Kinnabulu.
it must be hard to for him to even stay calm and rational. and my brother has his mid-years coming so he's getting frentic as well.

think will be leaving immediately tmr..gonna be away for a few days le..

going back for sectionals last friday made me feel like 'band-ing' so much. i miss long long practices. i think im the only weird lone soul who secretly doesnt wish for band practices to end. i dont mind playing piece after piece after piece..well, provided i like the piece enough. but the point is i really miss playing the flute in band, with my crazy section which entertains me to no limit, with mr ho imparting his knowledge, with of cuz the band as a whole.

actually playing the flute made me realise one thing, that i enjoy doing the same thing over and over again in order to reach near perfection. just like how i play the same mobile game just to beat my own high score (=_=") its very 'me'. i dont find it boring as long as i enjoy it. i dont mind playing that string of tricky running notes 10, 20, 30 times until i feel that it is good enough. by then my fingers will have already gotten into auto pilot mode. beatrice once said that flautists prolly eat scores, thats why we remember everything without looking at the score. lol (:

i think i should be thankful for joining band. i remember i joined band only bcuz medalene n yiwen joined co in rv, so i decided to try smth different and go for the band audition with mayqi and mel yeo. my snrs in rv were so awesome. i really really looked up to them as a junior. it was like they were everything im not. when i was in the netball team in pri sch, i was quite an athlete but never a star player. i can run, i can shoot, but i cant play in a match. i just cant perform. when i took up band and flute, it was like i finally found smth that i could perform, or even excel in as long as i put in the effort. seniors like gm and cindy soh gave me much motivation to improve myself. i was in awe of their musicality as well as personality. they were both inspirational leaders and great players.

this is NOT to say that im now a star player. im still a much flawed player, let alone musician. i cant tell if im sharp or flat. i dont know how to play even one minor scale. i have zero theory background. but i did progressed and made my cca life memorable. i met my bestest friends and family like my section, ant, ek, carmen, jh in band.

n im thankful to have the chance to play solos for syfs and concerts. it feels extremely gratifying if u do work hard and people comment that u sound good. i tot my withheartandvoice solo was screwed up big time but mr oura actually thought it was good. MAN. gan dong maxxxxx please.
i do like some solos that i've played like stabat and internal combustion, but i always underperform for the actual concerts n competitions, for which i find utterly disappointing. i just cant seem to get that confidence ):

rite now, with all these thinking about future prospects and plans, i cant help but feel that playing the flute is what i REALLY want to do. not vet science, not any uni courses.

but that is all but just a dream that may be impossible to materialise.

gg. my phone is in coma. no phone to use. gg. i said gg twice. okay now that's thrice.

work was great today. generally not very busy. met this hyperactive mongrel puppy named Lucky. his owner had a hard time trying to get the dog into the carrier again when leaving so i helped out abit. the dog is really cute! though in the end it took three people to succeed haha. so jumpy! had a few really nice golden retrievers too. pearl and and a pretty cat.

then had a therapeutic session of pills popping with dr phua. not what u're thinking! i wasnt taking drugs. just popping overdued pill into the bins to be discarded. hahaha. quite fun. just like popping the air-filled foam thingies that come with ur newly bought electrical appliances.
dr phua said why would people want to pop pills to commit suicide! staring at the green mess i realised those pills looked quite gross. but i guess its the painless factor that makes people choose it over the other options, like slitting wrists and jumping building. man, nowadays we discuss over all sorts of stuff, from celeb gossip to current affairs to new foodie sources to depressing topics like this. interesting.

kids nowadays are unbelievable. unbeliveably cute, smart or downright rude and even bitchy. on my bus ride home...

(daughter and mom were sitting apart from each other intially, one on each side)

D: *kicks mom from the right* why u never get a car! (note
that D
is practically shouting for all to hear, and always poking her
finger
in ther mom's face rudely)

M: where got money! own car very expensive

D: u have! u have 30K!

(some commuters gasped. )

M: ...

D: why never take taxi! if we take taxi we would have reached LONG TIME AGO
ALR. U SAID WILL TAKE TAXI ONE! SEE WHAT TIME NOW?

M: bus will be fast. reaching bukit batok already!

D: *swings bag to hit mom* fast ur head! pass me the stop watch! how many
minutes already u tell me ??

(i was appalled. she even had a stopwatch to record the time??)

M: *refuses to pass over the stopwatch and lies blatantly* three minutes
only! *laughs jovially?!*

D: WHERE GOT THREE MINUTES ONLY! *stands up and gets over to mom, obstructing
the passageway for passengers who are alighting*

D: *looks at time and shrieks* SEE! SO LATE ALR! if we took taxi we would
have reached alr! when we reached home i'll GET A CANE! AND BEAT U UNTIL UR
BUTT
BLEED! HANDS ALSO! FEETS ALSO! HMPHHHMP!

(my mouth prolly will be gaping wide open by now, if i hadnt clamped it
shut)

M: *laughs!* ?!

afterwards there was two adjacent vacant seats.

M: come over and sit here now!

D: dont want! *pokes finger in mom's face* who ask YOU dont want take
taxi!

M: come and sit over here!

D: too many things, i cant carry. (only her bag which she used to hit her
mom)

M: say mommy please. then i help u carry

D: dont want!

M: okay dont say lorr! then i dont help

D: okay lorr! dont help! dont help!

M: *drags bag over, wants d to sit over badly. xin ruan alr..tsk.* say mommy
please, i helping u now

D: NOO! u want u get the bag lorr

M: *drops bag on the floor, obstructing passageway again. some commuters
kicked it accidentally* fine, i'll leave it here lorr!

D: what the hell! *grabs bag, goes over to mom*

M: say excuse me mommy, then i let u sit inside

D: NO! u are the one who made me take bus. so long! got taxi u dont want
take! I DONT CARE!!!

M: *says I DONT CARE synchronised with D, so happy she managed to say it in
that with the daughter, laughs jovially again...

by then i have gotten a headache. gosh...okay time to end my boring post in this boring blog that has zero, or many negative readers. nite.

my two offdays last week were totally awesome. went bugis on friday for a crazy shopping trip. i splurged and bought one baby doll top, three dresses and one checkered top :D :D :D the best thing about working is absolutely the ability to check off ur wishlist with ur own money. woots. ate the yummilicious laksa for brunch and fishnco for dinner as well. MMmmmmm :P
dear is ultimately stubborn. refuses to let me buy any clothes/shoes for him ):

sunday was also piggybank-breaking. din tai fung breakfast and crystal jade lunch omg. i honestly think the standard of JP's DTF is like lower than CJ. serious. then it was some mini shopping for dear's pre-ns prezzies and i bought two necklaces (: wheeeeeeee! not very thrifty i know, but i can account for the shopping craze! prolly after ck leaves for ns there wont be anyone to pei me shop anymore. n im a fussy shopper heh heh. only he, with his pre-ns running and trainings, can withstand the long hours of walking through the entire bugis street. tyvm (:!

work was unexpectedly good today. cute dogs, nice customers, and loads of chitchat with colleagues and uni-discussion with dr phua. talking with dr phua about my choice of uni courses made me realise how utterly thoughtless i have been while selecting courses. i kind of had the "oh man i wont get in one la so anyhow choose lorr" mood when i was filling up the application. now that i finally have sat down to think about it seriously, it is definitely too late. but what's done has been done, i can only hope for the best and prepare myself for the worst. come what may, i'll try my best to handle it. my age is edging towards one that starts with a dreadful 2, and its time for me to really get a grip and take charge of my own life.

today there was a customer with two chihuahuas who looked like siblings, just that one was smaller and the other has a bushier tail. but they are actually mother n son. the S size doggy was the mother (9 years old), and the M size son (8 years old) has a Japanese Spitz dad, which accounts for his fluffy rear.
i find it amazing that dogs can actually live and grow old together with their offsprings, since they can usually give birth at the age of 1 already. not that i want to have a child young so that i can grow old with them :\ but it is kind of intriguing to me in a way i cant explain. nvm.

im eating more and more nowadays! im even okay with food that i normally wont take, like peanut butter and milo. gg. i need a restraining order!

It all started with an innocent palm seed, and an overly-inquisitive dog who enjoys swallowing foreign objects.
Her name is Pupie.

Pupie was hospitalised since yesterday morning. During her stay I have had some contact with this hyperactive cocker spaniel. In fact, the last time i patted it was only about 6 hours before it breathed its last. The surgery was successful and the palm seed that has caused bouts of vomitting and anguish to the dog was extracted without complications. However, when we were just about to close down the clinic and call it a day, Michael called out, "Dr! Quick, Pupie is dead!"
CPR was perfomed. I watched in silence. I expected the dog to regain breathing, to show some sign of life. I really did believe it was just too weak at the moment, so CPR should be able to rescue it...I really thought Pupie would not die.

I was wrong. She never did breathe again. Touching her head, which was still warm, I couldnt believe that the lively dog that i saw on weds,, and the dog who responded when I called her name and patted her JUST TODAY

was gone. forever.

More heartbreak was due when we were informed to wait for the arrival of the dog's owners.
When the family arrived they practically pounded on the back door of the clinic to be let in. They flamed the vet mercilessly. I think the reality was even harder for them to take. The dog was only 4 years and 1 month old. It has always been relatively healthy other than its bad habit of consuming exotic objects. I wasnt prepared for the outburst of rage. I cringed as I stepped out of the surgery room, where four versus one were having a verbal battle.

After much reasoning and explanation, the raised frenetic and furious voices reduced to murmurs. the family seemed to have calmed down but the scene of how the madam stopped dead in her tracks when she saw the covered body from afar just keeps playing in my mind. She totally broke down before she even went into the room. The laid white towel was the ultimatum. Maybe like me, she had this glimpse of hope that Pupie could have been revived while they were rushing here. But the sight of the carcass was what determined what was the cold hard truth and what was never to be again. We see too much of dramas and dead patients covered with the green surgery cloth that we are numb sometimes. Seeing this in real was like an unpleasant joke, one that spat right back at you.

I feel so sorry for the madam. We always have been talking and chatting when she visits with her three dogs. Like Pumpkin!! I guess I can never joke with her in lighthearted ways the next time she visits, if she does.

I'll pray for u, Pupie.

bye. rawr.

choosing courses is like choosing what to eat. and ur grades are like the money u have for buying food. and the different universities are the different stores.
some stores sells better chicken rice. some stores sell less tasty chicken rice-but at a lower price.
others give combo meals but only and if only u have enough money to buy.

right now i have very little money. so i have very limited choices. but i also dont need to trouble over what to eat. so i have already decided.
i see a very long queue. and the boss havent fix the price yet. GG. wish me luck lorr.

and i think the previous paragraph sounded overly singlish and kiddy. not that it matters.

finally met up with stwotwo peeps and clique after so long. dinner at crystal jade was great. great food, great company, great gossip. its no wonder i always get Monday Blues. im actually dreading work a little, not because i dont enjoy it, but the lost of five days of freedom really is a high opportunity cost.

looking forward to my off days. and my pay check.

I MET OBAMA TODAY! :O :O :O :O :O

what i meant was Obama the puppy. its a mix, yorkshire cross shih tzu and it's look is so exotic yet adorable. cute MAXXXX.
work was enjoyable today! work wasnt that hectic so there was still some time for the four of us to gather and chat. laughed so much that i forgot abt A levels results.

but now im thinking about it again. ABBCC sounds average and bordering on pretty okay until u consider BCC for H2s. BCC just means BAD! CANNOT CAN? considering retaking math n phy. the two subjects i have the least interest for.

RAWR.

cindy lum, u're SUCH A LOSER.

hi life. i think im messing u up.

a level results are coming out in just a few days. uni is always a question. my parents are unable to support me so i guess depending on myself is the only option.
i think my mind is saying, "well heck, since im not going uni this year, it doesnt really matter aint it?" i think im just deceiving myself, using my one-year work contract as an excuse to temporarily evade any form of decision making.

simply put, im just plainly and blatantly unmotivated to find out what courses i REALLY aspire to take up. im just going to work, work, and work. i know i somehow want to be a vet. but 'somehow wanting to' is simply not enough. the fees are a bomb. just the thought of studying abroad and being separated from loved ones scares me. and that is more than enough to put me off significantly. does this mean i have certainly a lack of conviction in pursuing Veterinary Science?

while i still have this grace period before the results are out, im having an issue with my screwed up personality as a whole. im starting to find myself content with just socialising at work and with him on offdays. besides the losing my contacts just on my phone, im losing my contacts with all my friends on a general basis. what happened to 'hey we must meet up for bball?', 'lets have dinner tgt!' and 'wanna go shopping?', which is definitely not great. THE family, as usual, is never quite harmonious. and trust issues with love still needs working on.

bye pathetic life, ur incapable master is off to watch some action and colours from a box.

hi blog. i think its kind of pathetic but...u're like too dead for words. let me fill u up bit by bit. u just have too much to catch up with. like my no-life life, and my job.

ahhh. speaking of my current job its kind of an all-in-one post. previously when i was on a job hunt, i was interested in admin, customer service, cashiering, healthcare assistant and retail sales. guess what, im doing all this in my current job--as a receptionist at Vet Practice Pte Ltd.
how cool/uncool is that??

i think i got abit of an age-shock over there. i mean, everyone there is much older than me, unlike at bengawan solo where all the staff there are fall within the 20 plus/minus age bracket. wowxorzx. the staff and docs here are still nice and accommodating people but i shouldnt have expected them to go crazy with me the BS gang.
they taught me what it means to be meticulous. one small error and thats it, u screw the accounts. and i did screw up once or twice. holy shits.

my dear friends who have 'affectionately' associated me with SLOW, u can change that to MULITASKER now. i answer calls while booking appointments, swipe credit cards, finalise bills, dispense medicine, enter data......wooooooo.

i like swiping cards. and the KA-CHING sound of the cash register opening.

and i like to type.

and i like to dispense medicine too...

and the best thing is that im with animals all day long at work<3


the reason why my post gets more incomprehensible is because... zzzz...working people are sleepy people....


the one and only interesting thing about this post is coming..



man, wait for it...















































meet Pumpkin! much cuter in real life.


now i understand that being a vet, u arent there to be see cute dogs jumping around in joy. u are supposed to make sure the pets are going to be HEALTHY to be able to do that. in my one week of work, i have seen so many sick pets. pets with skin problems, diseases, injuries, and even a dog with cancer on chemotherapy. man, it was coughing and vommitting. it couldnt even manage to bark. it sounded almost like a child, ill and choking. totally heart wrenching...

bye blog. im going to sleep. here's to another day of pet rescue.

same o', im still jobless. the tutoring agency scammed me.
now im awaiting reply from RMA! fingers crossed.
i really hope to get that admin job although its at some offshore island D:
my mom n dear are not very comfortable with that although i am perfectly fine with it.
otherwise i'll be contacting another agency to work as a customer service assistant at outram. the usual 6/hr job.

the zoo isnt very fond of me either. just when i tot i could soon go feed giraffes as requested by wenqi.

the jobless bug is making me desperate.

2008 past by so fast, too fast it seems.
how should i describe it?
eventful? exotic? wadeva it is, good or bad, its over.
so maybe its time to make some resolutions, to make the good better and change the bad!

i aim to :

1. be more confident
2. trust him more
3. pangseh people less :X
4. be more outgoing and expressive
5. be nicer to my parents :) n everybody
6. find a job soon! :(
7. be more decisive!!
8. get myself a flute with my own pay :D :D
9. exercise more :O !
10. take more initiative D:

..and the list is exhuastive. i think it'll be interesting to find out if i have kept to my words next year (:

anw hee, i can start reading my everyday horoscope predictions from the Taurus book finally!

happy new year people (: !





i had quite a memorable last day of 2008 :D


first, had lunch n movie with dear at causeway !


Bedtime Stories was real entertaining man. Skeeter (Adam Sandler) was ridiculously funny and retardedly cute. that cute in that sense, if u get what i mean.




but the REAL CUTE ONE was Bugsy the guinea pig :D :D!
the eyes aside, it breakdances, diets after burger feasts and tucks itself into bed! how coolzxzx is that! hahaha


rite, so after the movie was the impromtu meet up with the band gang. sons jiahao andrew dolly&christ. went toys r us n jiahao bought the Taboo Singapore Edition game, which was the main source of entertainment at ek's house after a yummylicious dinner.
i was on a winning streak kae! never lost once ;) lucky lucky n thanks to telepathic team mates!
had exotic beverages like red wine (ant sponsored! xiexie) n tomato juice (due to dieting dolly).
both dint agree very well with my tastebuds though haha. im not an exotic drinker ;(
after like four or five rounds we were tired from laughing but got ready for MORE laughing to come thanks to the jap youtube videos. they simply make for ROFL-time.

left at ard 255am finally. in order not to incur the wrath of two mighty adults. that ends yet another fun 2008 on a good note (:

happy new year everyone!

"we're sorry to notifiy that only shortlisted candidates will be informed."
it is super agonising to job seekers, like ME, or particularly me. while thats perfectly reasonable and understandable, it does not minimise the extent of agony that is inflicted on me. full stop.

wenqi told me about a job lobang! omg omg!
but im really really keen about that temp admin job at tuas. which has transport provided from jp! FRIGGIN. so what should i do now?
maybe i should trust the fact that i sent two different resumes to the same tuas company,
meant that they really did not want me, like eww, we wont hire this weirdo who spammed us twice.
or i can totally continue to bluff myself that they havent opened my mail/or still considering
5 jan leh. thats not too far away from first day of work!

rawr. its okay. if all fails i'll send a resume to be a trainee zoo keeper. my dream job when i was, erm, younger.

not kidding. serious.

sitting down to mug is HARD.
zq bro enlightened me ytd! by hook or by crook i'll force myself to concentrate n mug!!!

went out with ahnia today to mug. did some phy n then succumbed to the shopping bug.

watts earrings!
me hearts rainbow clip YO.
wad is making ahnia so deep in tots after his first bite?
made did he eat that made him so stunned by its flavour??
ITS THE...(rated GREATBITEZ by me) BK new chicken tendergrill topped with ham n cheese!

bb im off to MUG.

conflicting paths n misleading arrows.
what am i to comprehend?
staring at the reflection of the window,
reliving the past.
till it all gets back,
to almost feeling normal again.

how should i describe the last day of school?
just like what econs preaches, a mix of policies to ....
the last day of school gives a mix of feelings.
i guess it was exciting being the pon-queen for the day. n the tutorials were super fun too! hearts ms ng <3 !!
but. somehow i feel so empty leaving this class.
07S22.
its THE CLASS that i'll forever rmb. the one n only.
honestly, i've never felt so attached to a class before. maybe its commonly known as class spirit. but it more of like everyone being able to click with one another, despite our differences, that's so worth treasuring.

i have always wanted to wind back time. to go back to where i erred and make amends. to turn back time to moments of folly and attempt to be more sensible.
but guess what?
one of the things i really dint want to change right now is the class that im in.
had i not done slightly off the mark during O lvls, i may not have appealed n enrolled in nj, into this class.

how will it feel like to be in uni, where u have no fixed identity, no fixed class, no fixed group of people to move in n out of lectures with?
i think its horrible! guess i hate being independent.

my rants dont really make sense. guess i shld stop here.
let pictures do the talking for the next post bahz.

well nj sure wasnt boring today. the incident at the canteen was SCARY. oh wells.

i nearly gave up on A levels today! AHA.
well its not up to me to choose. i will still have to take it anyways.
so i shall give it my best shot :D! from TMR onwards.

procrastination at its best is when tmr meets tmrs.
put me on display for the perfect manifestation of procrastination.

kaes its really time to jiayou alr. NO JOKE !
hope everyone will jy n work hard :) ! but dont be too stressed!
GOOD LUCK!
i need ALOT of luck.

guess who's crash landing?
me!
here goes.

im going crazy. im mad, emo, tired, freaked-out, stressed,
n its not pms.
dont ask me why. my brain is dysfunctional.

CONNECTED !
Loius Koo: Hero in theatres!


CK: Hero to desperate cabbers. hahas lame.


frame up the two dollars! :P

the net is an extremely zai time-eater!
it gobbled three hours of my time in a flash, not to forget the fifteen min intermission when my house blacked-out !!

GOOD GRIEF.

but i still get online anyway.
not anymore le bahs, A levels in one month leh!
kk. JIAYOU PPL!

MYSTERY QUIZZZZ

1. 30 questions! HOLY.
2. next to the qn, write only the person/people u deem fit!
3. psst, no telling those who aint gonna do the quiz
4. wanna do the quiz (: ? tell me!

here goes!

1. my son
2. MY MOM. n dad n bro. (kk, not funny)
3. chio bu
4. me me me me me!
5. wenqi/ sherry
6. kax
7. sons
8. dunno leh.
9. sherry/kax/ahnia
10. cousin
11. ?
12. 隋堂
13. dunno.
14. jh n man. lol.
15. ahnia!
16. xuiwan
17. wanwen
18. wenqi
19. kax
20. 隋堂
21. luckily, havent really met any
22. u die!
23. DAD! he governs my pocket money.
24. bro. jk!
25. eww.
26. erps.
27. extinct
28. huh.
29. bleh.
30. this quiz is hard to do :P

man, this quiz has got me racking my brains. D: !

WE, THE ZZC GANG, ROCKED THE SKOOL DOWN TODAY!!!!!
of cuz, we did that with our jaw-dropping disappearing acts n all-time favourite theme songs!

mugging in school has just reached a new level!

videos next time! its bedtime nowzzie.

p.s:
havent been so crazy in a long time! really enjoyed today, thanks ppl :D
loves. carefree n almost guiltless fun.

i've finally changed my blogskin to this simple one after looking at countless others that were really appealing n well-designed. however nice those layouts were, they dint suit me the least. somehow simplicity can strike a chord.

i've been contemplating wad i've been doing in my entire eighteen times three hundred and sixty five days of existence. to evaluate myself, i havent really been a worthy friend, a good sister or daughter, neither a studious student or leader. maybe, at some point of time i've been. but it wasnt never a matter of consistency. there's no direction in my life. all i've did is wadeva's necessary to prevent greater screw-ups in life.

im telling myself, that i wasnt born for mediocrity. not that i wanna be extraordinary either. i just want to be a better person.

realisation sets in that i enjoy doing things that i can do, or can excel. i love playing the flute, and listening to how i can try to make every single note better music. i love band, for that is where i really enjoyed making music. and i have made my best of friends there. i study for the tests which i think i can answer the most questions in. avoiding circumstances that forces me to step beyond my comfort zone and challenge myself is instilled deeply in me. which is all so wrong.

im telling myself, that weeny lumpy must be brave! i must do the things that i like, as well as those in the reject pile.

dunno why im doing all these mindsearching either. time will tell if it is of any use.

went mugging in school today with my jiemeis! i think i ate. n drank. n laughed. n played sketcher.. more than i used my brain or pen.
GEE but it was fun :D

hahas.
though we complain so much about the cleanliness of our canteen stalls, i think i'll still miss nj food. plus the bubbletea, the caifan uncle, the bug in the chilli even ._.
i'll even miss nj! i never really missed cps or rv, despite the longer 4 or 6 years i spent there. its the people that i'll miss. the friends i made n the experiences i had in these two years to come...


psst tell u a secret: I'VE NEVER EVER WENT TO IKEA BEFORE !!!
UNTIL TODAY that is, hehheh. dont laugh!

after mugging yr kax me left for ikea!
if i had my way, i'll buy ikea n live there.
why not? we three love that couch, and of cuz the food.



the ultra comfy couch

proven by yr
kax's mini burger !
ikea meatballs!
my verdict

prelims.
one word: dead.

tagged by kax (:

Rules:
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. What are your reasons for having a LJ being slow?
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... huh? u were asking ._. ?

2. What do you do before bedtime?
curtains drawn n lightsoff. i cant sleep with any light on.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
ask zhou gong. i think he noes.

4. Where is the city of your dreams and why?
i dont want a city. i want somewhere sunny, flowery, happy n animally.
maybe i wanna retire in aust (: !

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
agrees with kax. im an ixtrovert ;D

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone who loves me

7. Do you trust easily?
nope.

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
i dont have role models. see what i've become? omg! :P

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
myself :P

10. When's the last time you had fun?
when i wasnt myself (:

11. Is being tagged fun?
ohyeafab. it takes me away from gp :D!

12. How do you see yourself?
im quite blind actually. hehheh :/

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
nor! zhe ger na ger zhe ger zhe ger n na ger...


14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a v.nice yuyuan! one side of her is ahdu-n-craziness, the other is omgneihan-n-smart

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single n rich n going to be married.

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
cliche. two.

17.What's better, to give or to receive?
depends on what? my bro gives me headaches. D:

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
impossible. thats not being fair or true to urself hor.

19. What would you do if you became pregnant unexpectedly?
can expect when to get pregnant one meh :/ ?

20. What are you waiting for right now?
my essay to complete itself. D:

Tagged: ahnia carina jiahao yuxin lisa

hi. seems like my resolution to stop blogging has been overwritten.

quoted:
Guys keep quiet during arguments cause they know;
in an argument, its not a battle of reasons but who is louder and strongwilled
and in arguments most pple seek to hurt rather than be concerned about whats wrong.

dont know whether it applies to every guy, but i think its really quite true.
when i get angry i lose all my senses. its almost like i have gone insane.
whether i was right or at fault, i wouldnt have that much control to stop and think about it.
i just wanted to dump away all my hurt and anger. and my way of doing it is really really wrong. it totally wasnt fair to u.
my mom always throws in this sentence whenever we quarrel: "you yi tian ni de chou pi qi yi ding will hai si ni!"
it is totally my cue to roll my eyes. but however much i wish to deny she's totally DEHDEHDEH WRONG, she's right.

i think i should really stop jumping to conclusions sometimes. cuz i dont wanna hurt anoybody whom i care for D:

sorries n <3 !

i guess today may be the last time i blog before i go on a hiatus.
and off i go to cramming chunks of information that i dont really need effectively and efficiently (hopefully) such that starting on a certain day in August i'll empty them out again in a very very orderly and accurate manner, (i hope), and fit them in the places that fit, (i really hope), and get some nice alphabets on a piece of paper, (which i hope the most).

i cant believe prelims is in like twenty days' time.
its like oh man oh man my brain is still at the repair shop i doubt its coming back and nah it'll still be dsyfunctional anyways.



no i dont believe what u say auntie maria. not now.
i feel like a total AP-kia :P

time to jiayou everyone! :D
im off! bb!

this is totally random but funny:


nohmygodyayu'realrite!

this is what a personality test says of me:


You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat(especially sweets) . You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.
Warmth, comfort, security and familiar surroundings are necessary for you to feel at ease. Very loving and affectionate, you prefer a steady, patterned way of life. Patient, calm and steadfast, you are not easily upset. Others look to you for support. You tend to be a slow starter and a slow mover -- others may try to rush you, but they will never succeed. Emotionally, you are quite stubborn -- your attitudes about people and things were firmly set in your youth and will change very little as an adult.
A slow and careful thinker, you like to present ideas visually and concretely. Abstractions are quite difficult for you to understand. For you, everything must be practical and useful in order to merit your attention. You are a perfectionist -- you enjoy being skillful enough to handle the dexterity required of fine craftsmanship. Cautious and conservative in your thinking, you are very slow to change your opinions. You are more apt to respond to an appeal to your feelings than to an appeal to logic or reason

words that i made in bold are stuff that are more relevant i guess.
haha carmen jh ck may be laughing their heads off now.
cuz the report keeps saying that IM S L O W D:!!!
like at least five times!
am i really that slow ._. ?

the part about overeating is true too.
im the gummy killer of the century.

and it says i need to be in stress and out of my comfort zone before i can grow.
how true! and more true by saying i dislike it!
it says i enjoy my sllllooooowwwww, relaxing n routine life.
the main idea is dont rush me dont push me dont make me too upset.
then i'll be a happy lump.

lalala a random test that is quite accurate so here's the link to try it if u want
http://www.alabe.com/freechart/

im off to do my cca reflections. rawwrrr.

school reopens!
sleep is gone!
the late nights and early mornings are taking a toll on my health.
good grief now im down with a fever, accompanied by a mountain of homework and revision left undone.
just finished my gp presentation slides n is breaking out in cold sweat.
how lovely ):
take care of ur health n dont be like me D:!

the start of the new term gave all j2s a jolt, kick starting our mugger mode.
m i hyped up or tensed? RAWR. i dunno. btw i dunno alot of other things too.
but i noe i should stop procrastinating n start doing work soon!
adios ppl :D

we'll always be here for u. always.
u dont have to hide from us. it makes neither party feel better.
know u're going thru a tough patch now..
but guess wad, we gonna walk along with u out of it!

smile, my fren, my haojiemei (:

what do i do-
with this. with myself. with everything.

im freaking useless.

i think im starting to forget that im still a student and i still have my A levels to take. talk abt homework. i started on gp essay plan this noon n i stopped at gp essay plan. all i feel like doing these days is play eat sleep.

other than that i thinking abt alot of stuff. stuff that are depressing.

to summarise:

yes. multiply that RAR by million times n add loads of desperation,emoness n frustration on it. tada.

fourth anni! <3

we went to terminal three


ate POPEYES meal



and watched a soldier wannabe crawl ard


i realised my head is SO BIG


so sad! so sad!


he was so proud, so proud of his small head!


i insist we took a smaller head shot. NO USE >< still so big. RAH.


den went bugis for


n ate uzumaki n pink yoghurt (: yummy :P

thanks for the entire day of fun. n all the shopping n walking that killed our soles.<3 u!

more photos! from old to recent (:

etude section photos!



we looked so happy tgt! anyways my second year in njband is no doubt the best band year i ever had totally. seriously. i REALLY lurved it. be it the playing or the company. i'll miss njband n MY SECTION so much. thankew all for making my band life such a fab one (:(:(:(:

photos! finally (:
section photo!

slackionals?

college day

simin!

rvnj bandsmen!

jiemeis

band photo

my flute!

my flute with bubble two!

global score. rose is a FLOUR (:

yamato score. ATTACK!

following four are etude nite GEL HAIR COMP photos. look at my poor sons.





the end! for now.

ETUDEXXXII!!! my etude post will come after i get all the photos (:


today was pizza hut n movie with him (: ! kung fu panda's real funny n heartwarming film. haha Master Oogway n Po are extremely cute! i still dunno why Po's father is a goose. weird. shant say more lest i spoil the fun for those who have yet to catch it. GO WATCH :D !
now i find the Master Crane toy xy gave me even more interesting. lol.

etude XXXIII's over.
my njcsb life is coming to an end too.
i wouldnt say i played well. disappointingly, rehearsals are always much better n i feel like i did so much injustice to myself.
but HECK the important thing was that i REALLY enjoyed playing for this concert.
it was the first time i had so much fun and felt most confident (except before n during my solos D:)

i still remember the two weeks of intensive practices. these two weeks are the most memorable despite us having spent months in preparation for etude.
i guess it was during this period that we really you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang.
all my six years in band, i never felt as emotionally n physically drained before.
we used to have long practices in rv too but somehow maybe as i age my body is less hardy =_= lol.
but thank goodness i had AWESOME section mates with me. i really muz thank them one by one.

first up, (by order of sitting arrangement n not favouritism ;D )

SON!
ant is our steady pompipi piccoloist who never practices anything other than zzzzZZZZzzzz and com games :D! yet he's so zai :D! n he did alot for the band as PP too!
as my fellow section mate for like six years already, he brought me countless moments of fun and laughter throughout these six years. im always hiding behind the stand and laughing cuz he's so full of shit. LOL. JK.his crazy antics and funny comments really helped chased my boredom away :)
and with engkwan, these two sons always make sure i never go hungry after practices.
we would go poolside with jiahao carmen jeffrey etc or go sheng shiong hawker eat n they will keep getting n filling my bowl with food. so xiao shun worr.
im really thankful to have met such a guai erzi. although he blasted my ear off with his picc and he's not very guai cuz he always playing instead of mugging.
haha but he is more dong shi now really n his studies are not bad now worr! top in class for some test ehh. son continue to jiayou kae :D ! mama's proud of u.

ROSE(Y)
rose marie! my fellow first flute mate! marie's like cool cool smart smart n nice nice although she's getting a little abusive like xiangyin T_T (u'll read more later), she likes to poke me every now and then slowly and call it a slowpoke, but overall i really enjoyed her company! artistic rose draws really well n she started this drawing frenzy thing n so me ant oso began to fill our scores with drawings! it was damn fun!
rose oso owns at wii games! LOL.
n marie i INSIST u're really a gud player n u're not gonna die without me alrite! u have both the tone n technique! i'll be coming for next year's etude to listen to u play all the solos (: ! great job on stage band dance n the concert =D ! its been great having u ard n sadly im leaving D: but i know u'll continue to do us seniors proud! will miss u rosie!

XY
xiangyin! u're the first section mate to turn my world upside down haha (: u're totally awesome n u saved me from dying of hunger alot of times! although u're forever kicking my ass literally or poking me or hitting me T_T! u're so weird! jk! i swear u're the wackiest section mate i ever had. u're totally random but ohso funny :)! u n huijuan tgt brought us so much joy n laughs. n staying over at ur house is pure wicked fun!
i have no idea whether u're my senior or junior till now. after etude i rmbed u said for mainstream ppl, we come n we leave after two years, but for ips, you guys stay while batches come n go...it was so saddening! but i guess this is wad will make u cherish the memories even more. bu yao ku kae! my dear nu er! u muz stay through these last two years alrite! u've improved so much as a player throughout these years in njband. jiayou :D! u said u'll do mama proud. i KNOW u will. and u WILL (: i'll never forget u (: xiangyin u rawk!

BONG!
cheryl! cuz u sit further away from me n closer to pyschopath xy i rarely have time to talk to u during band pracs. maybe we talked more during slackionals but cuz i was busy slacking so i dint get to know u that well yet. hahaha. aniwae u're a nice jr! helpful n responsible. n u fed us during the two weeks of hellish canteens-not-opened period! WAHHH! so touched T_T ! havent got the chance to hear u play much but so far u're doing great managing with mr ho's challenging repertoire! jiayou n i promise to drop by when im free to save u from xy's clutches !

DREW
andrew ng u're a bastard. n a pro flautist n a super dedicated bm. thanks for playing a vital role in supporting the fute section n doing so much for the band. well ur efforts paid off :)! the concert was a success! claps. i muz thank u for being a fab section mate for the past one year too. lol. now that we senior citizens are gonna leave the band n leave it in good hands, concentrate on having fun this hols n jiayou for As!

CHEN CHEN (lol)
chenyu! i think u're a really hardworking n nice section mate! even as we have slackionals u dont slack :D ! thanks for working hard to help make etude a success! hope u enjoyed playing for the concert! thanks for being with us these one n a half years n sorry for neglecting u at times when we ppl go crazy!

SILING
yo O! i still think our section tee is really cool (: kudos to rose n xy. aniwaes flutes n oboes merging is a fab idea! cuz we had u n eddee and the-more-the-merrier thoery is true! good job on etude n continue to jiayou for next year's syf and etude! hope u get a nice nice jr too cuz u deserve it. cya ard!

EDDEE
our saxo-turned oboist! i think its amazing n pro how u managed to play the oboe so well within such a short time! u're passionate abt making good music n i guess loads of hardwork made ur sucess today possible too. hope ur music making doesnt stop here as we step down from njcband cuz u have talent in music. give alumni band a few more tries (: ! thanks for entertaining us with accent imitations n gossip sessions too! as u said, hou hui you qi (: !


LAST BUT NOT LEAST, my dearest FLUTE <3
for the past one year i've been seeing u almost every morning. u had to put up with my lousy air support and icy cold fingers. but u muz thank me for polishing u n transorming u from black to shiny silver! u've been a great partner who pei-ed me thru syf n etudes. u rawk! pls go see a doc soon though. ur key is forever getting stuck n u nearly screwed me up more than hundred times. haha.

pictures are a trouble to upload so i shall finish gathering them before posting!

its not the first time they did this.
somehow whatever wrong he does they never do blame him. squandered 50bucks in a day at pri4? fine. no prob.
got into grave trouble hacking the system? they dont really blame him. oh he's talented! he juz got framed by a friend.
etc etc etc.
they do no more grumble or reprimand juz a little.

but for every minor slip i make..
like putting the key on the table instead of on the pink container (huh?)
like not bringing in the laundry (not like he does?)
like not waking him up on one morning (when he was supposed to wake up on his own) n he was late for his test . in the end he went to get a fake mc. wadever.
they scream. they shriek. hit me even.

alrite if im in the wrong, like i lied, lost smth or made a grave mistake, scold me.
but man its RIDICULOUS! sometimes its like in the first place its not my fault n u want to malign me or make me take the blame?
why? the reason is well, he doesnt talk back. i do.
GOOD GRIEF. they expect me to shut up when im being freaked at when its not even my problem?
well den why doesnt he talk back?
simple. bcuz he doesnt even give a damn. nth goes in. zilch.
so im taking all these shit because i care?

i swear if they ever touch me again..i wont hold back.

wo zuo cuo le.

went to some pepperoni pizza place to eat after school on mon with njrvians :D

they have pizza this big @-@


they have coloured paper as table cloths! tada! my creation :D

we had so much fun sharing jokes! this guy was obviously eavesdropping.


that place was totally exotic! they charge 200 bucks for a jug of ice water.
they serve pizzas the size of the table! the restroom was pretty cool too. lots of things on the walls to read. cool. if one day we dont have to pay so much class fund for notes the class should save up n go there for class outing!


dear has talent (:!

this is my default look and pose. cuz nowadays forever so tired!
Let X denote the number of hours i sleep a day.
P(X>5)<0.05
holy. quite sick of doing work, going through work, then doing more work again.
nvmind, sooner or later will numb de :P&having u with me makes life easier to bear (:
haha class today was more entertaining cuz of jing an's markovnikov joke and shibin's dramatic replay of napfa.
after that was two periods of gp compre test. zapped any few brain cells that i actually have.

67days le. zuo le hen duo yi wei shi wei lew ni hao er que rang ni nan guo de shi. dui bu qi!

hell long since i blogged! alot of things happened but nvmind, no longer have the luxury of time to recap everything D:

YES I WANNA TALK ABOUT TIME.
time bu gou yong!
i need more time to spend with him. with my frens. with my flute. n maybe my bed.
i need more time to attack that never-ending pile of homework.
i need more time so that i can afford to rant on my blog while i still have work to do.

common test is so neeeaaaarrrr! HOLY!
i muz stop procrastinating :D XD D: DX

aniwaes today's econs lesson was fun!
i will keep a mental note that im supposed to think with my butt n not my head.
wonder if this applies to retards as well.
ms ng's really ke ai haha. i knew i liked her all along. nice teacher!

to frens who are facing problems rite now,

so...


BB (:

RAWR!

been having quite abit of mood swings recently D:


dui bu qi oh!

how shall i describe the recent math test?
maybe like RAHHHHHHHHhhhhrahhhhhhhraHHHHHHHHHHHRaahhhhh--then, *plane descending noises: EEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwoooooooooo.POM.*
study study stress stress.
then cannot finish half of the paper o.O
HOLY MOLY :D !
glad its over bah.

feeling odd these days.
hen mei you jing shen !
maybe need to go more crazy.
i think im a boring person.

this whole week has been freaking busy !
chem test, econs test, phy spa, mini concert! glad that i finally managed to get thru it :D
no doubt the tests were a flop ! hahas. but i DID study so jin li jiu hao (:
juz hope that i at least pass chem test !

mini concert was traumatising for me ! my flute keys got stuck for at least ten times.
sometimes can play, sometimes cannot ! with muck luck i dint crack any notes for my solo but definitely it wasnt up to standard. BLEH.
nvmind, after experiencing LIFE n DEATH with my flute, im more prepared for Etude ! hahas :D
good job all bandsmen n of cuz, my juniors ! u guys improved alot within this short period of preparation n yall did great :D bravo!
saw quite a number of rv juniors who turned up too (:
although it wasnt my best concert i guess i really enjoyed it. lovely repertoire!
time to thank the people:
yingrui for the letter n the cute poker cards :D
kaixin for the card !
yuxin for the sunflower :) !
jiaxu for the rose !
jiahao for the letter n toberones !
andrew for the letter n gummy!
pictures will have to wait till i get back my laptop D

ohh n i totally adore simin's house n her damn big room!
n her very nice armchair !
she did a fab job mc-ing with zai last nite too :D !

n u (:
sorry for being so careless n stuff T_T
i'll be more careful with my belongings !

im not perfect. but im happy.
the reason is simple (:
all it takes is

gummies

n knowing u're here for me

im late for the leapyearday post !
anyways it was way cooler than any previous ones cuz i actually got to celebrate it ! with ck sm kx yr !!
the day started out more emo-ish but after a certain misundersatnding was cleared i supposed the day brightened a little (:
that day was oso a healthy lifestyle day cuz we were so enthu we went running on our own accord n played bball too :D !
we attempted to do some mugging too. we were model students for the day.
den we went to vivo to have haagen daaz at the rooftop (:
the icecream was damn nice n we really have to thank carmen for it !
i remember the sky had a pinkish tint.

smth like this but darker
n when ur hand held mine, i knew u are the one.

today was band-den-mugging day !
i feel quite prepared for mini concert :D ! juz hope that i can keep my tone more consistent n make it richer during this period before the concert. of cuz i still have much to improve on definitely but it will have to wait till ETUDE.
as for mugging i just got this really zai tutor who charges amazing rates! hahas (:
it was the first time that i managed to mug outside despite all the distraction n stuff :D
tmr will be mug mug mug again cuz i cant go out D: !
RARR.
anyways western dances jiayou :D !!!

i have got a million things to say. but..

haha picture posts are fun!
heres the boring wordy part in case i need to look back n see wad i've done when im old n teethless.

alritey so the scary part abt today was chem spa. which was surprisingly relaxing.
haha but i still made a few mistakes here n there. LALALA~
math lesson was gud !
the teacher is really funny n i quite like the way he teaches :D

after school had a long talk with dear simin kaixin n yingrui !
haha we would have continued to blabber on if it wasnt time for band already.
i really need to count my blessings for knowing these people.n u.

after that had band prac. everybody's practising hard for a gud concert!
lets jiayou n put up a gud show!

had a nice dinner n went home feeling happy (:

a week is going to be over again juz like that.
i only remember some mad rush in doing tutorials, sleepless nites, late band practices n a slack road run. i recall more of the time we spent tgt (:
come next week everything will be pushed up a notch higher.
march is going to be a hectic month!
chem SPA, chem test, econs test. i hope that will be a full-stop ! dont lemme have stuff to add on !
okay there is smth to add on to the load. mini concert practices n rehearsals will fill up most of the after school time slots.

HAIZ D:
n im freakin pissed with my mom cuz obviously she had to guts to read my private diary. worse still she had to cut out this shit article n place it on my desk.
i hate it that she still treats me as a five year old child who is gullible enough to follow anyone who offers her sweets or smth.
it feels utterly violated n betrayed to have ur privacy intruded by ur closest kin.
strangely i dint flare up at her like i would have in the past.
im really sick n tired of all this mistrust n misunderstandings.
so i crushed the article n left a note that only the culprit will understand.
maybe out of guilt, she tried to make small talk with me today when i got home instead of the usual bout of shrieking n screeching that i receive usually.

i can forgive her, but i can never bring myself to trust her again.

rite, enough of depressing stuff.
today was the annual visit to mr ho's house !
at first i was prepared to give it a miss cuz i was running late n my slipper strap broke: A VERY BAD OMEN.
but my two b.sons had to threathen me n come all the way to my block to 'escort' me there. LOL. haha honestly these two sons are very nice to their mama.
had some fun getting to know mr ho's dog, exploring his house n playing cards !
me n my sons kept winning as a family. LOL.
my brain is currently overloaded so i shall let the pictures take over while i lag.




thats all for now.
please kindly make an appointment with my agent called HOMEWORKNSTRESSNSHITSTUFF.
till then, cya.

week after week, test after test.
RARRR. RAWRR. RAHHH !!

weird, nowadays i keep feeling like im hungry but later i'll have totally no appetite.
otherwise it'll be like im blardy awake for one minute, then freaking tired and drowsy by the next.
its either i have insufficient sleep or its just the time of the month D:
damnit.

five more weird things about myself:
1) im the only left hander in my family
2) i tend to fold my notes before i put them in my wallet
3) i always fold my sleeves also
4) i cant sleep at nite if i take naps. the number of hours napped will be the number of hours i suffer from insomnia at nite D:
5) u can kill me by feeding me broad beans cuz i have G6PD deficiency.

blah blah, stay tuned for more weirdness.
i muz be crazy today.

its awkard now but hopefully this phase will pass soon (:

my life will no longer be the same !
cuz i have WIRELESS :D :D and u (:
but wireless comes with a high opportunity cost !
i havent done any homework today ! muz chiong now n i might have to miss the 9 pm wuzongxian show D:

i saw a perverted cat killer mangling a kitten today while i was going home in my dad's car today. ARHHHHH.
if my dad had stopped the car i would have gotten down n gave him one tight slap. den call the cops. den sue him !
SICKENING BASTARD.

O and A level results are coming out so gud luck everyone (: !
XX XX fingers crossed for PW D: !

heres a late post on v day 08 (:

haha i came out of my house with a big bag of candies n chocs.
and i returned with yet a big bag of candy n chocs. (of cuz is different one lah haha)


roses from dearest huipeng n class guys :)


rose from rose marie (lol) n prezzie from simin n yingrui :D


letters from lisa fujian n shiyi !


cookies from grace n chocs from chinkeat (:


letter from my mortal! very pretty!

still need to thank kaixin xiangyin jiahao andrew huangyun tiff mamamarui aish suriya jiahui for candies/flowers/chocs/donut/brownie! :D
im not showing favouritism ok! haha (:


went home really early cuz i was blardy tired.
having to mug for phy test on vday is so demoralizing !
but at 11.25 pm i received smth that meant alot to me (:
erm hahas (:

anyways its finally friday ! n its like so fast end school le.
looking forward to the wuzongxian show at 8 which carmen reminded me to watch again ! and tmr got two more ! :D
tmr got band too. i need to get a new nicer fuller tone! and play louder!

yawns.
class chingay people muz be more tired than me D:
take care people!

something is buggin me. and its called my inferiority complex.

im not worthy of u..

hellos !
im blogging from some cybercafe in malaysia :)

i cant exactly confirm good news about my grandfather but i muz say that his condition is stable currently ! which is FREAKING gud news :D :D :D ! ahhh, the relief.
although seeing him in this condition is really xin suan but knowing that he might be well on his way to recovering is really comforting !
have been spending this few days nannying my cousins while the adults tend to gramps.
kids are really cute ! haha but they test every ounce of patience in u.
first u muz be patient enough to play all the funny games they made up themselves.
my biaomei who is five loves this game of mahjong tiles.
and no she doesnt play mahjong with them. she would sit on ur lap whole day long moving these white tiles as though they are cars.
"this car car, its going to buy ice-cream! ...going to school! ..going to buy cake"
and she will make u play as well! oh okay, so i say "this car, its going to school.."
but like NO. "nonono, today no school! holiday! go buy icecream."
and this game repeats itself to infinity~
haha really cute lah :) but maybe bcuz she was very doted on thats why she's so whinny and demands much attention.

the way kids ask u all the weirdest questions on earth makes u wonder if they were born with a brain bigger than their heads.
i think my cousins are really smart! either that or im juz plain dumb n slow haha :)
my biaodi is a genius at origami! he taught me how to fold a paper ball :D
haha n he learnt all the stuff i taught him super fast. he can now fold the origami boxes that i showed him ytd.
that day i made him sit down and write ant, bee, snake both in chinese and english.
normally being super hyper-active, he really sat down n wrote neatly bcuz i promised him candy and a new eraser.
guess what, he really finished the work i gave him! so guai !

after spending the first day with meimei n the second with didi, today, when both devils met, hell broke loose.
they were practically trying to tear me into two! and my handphone too!
thats why after much ordeal i finally managed to come out here :D !

i dont regret coming back to see my gramps but i really miss sg.
i missed two tests, stwotwo reunion dinner, and one mini-concert band prac D: D:
i miss stwotwo, hp gang, band, my flute, my room, my lappy, n alot of people n things ! .n i miss u.
when can i come back ?

quote of the day: a moment on ur lips, forever on ur hips! as said by dolly ! haha :D random.
aniwae had phy spa today. i miscalculated my n value ! rahh D: D: also random.

my fortune cookie says : keep your mind clear of problems, and good fortune will come.
HOW TO D: ?

now band is gonna have band prac on monday till eight thirty. good game, there goes my math test revision slot.

not that i mind having band cuz i totally dont ( me <3 my flute too much :D ) but i think i really need to mug ! j two year makes me so frentic and uptight abt every test.
i cant imagine A levels. maybe i'll die from heart attack by prelims. or common test.

normally i wouldnt say im retarded haha but i muz admit im a slow learner. during lectures i normally catch no ball. then i will have to go back home and study. if i dont, then it will be carried forward to the next day, which is very often the case. juz like the snowball rolling effect.
now i have a huge one, and its melting into a tsunami !

wed. i have to go back le. im keeping my fingers crossed..

many current events happening ard me n my frens showed how precious health is, especially as u age..so take care of urselves NOW ! so that u can grow old n still enjoy life..

wahhh i juz remembered that i have to go collect n print scores at coro by myself on monday after math make-up D: mei you carmen pei wo. sobs. who wanna pei me.

aniwaes jiayou for phy n math test people ! after the two days of torment yall can go celebrate le ! hong bao na lai :D ! and dont eat too much cuz *refer quote at top* !

life is confusing me nowadays !
there is no longer a clear line as to when im happy and when im not.
cuz its like a emotional meter with the needle rotating to n fro about BADDAY n GUDDAY at goddamn high frequency.

ask me my feelings now! quick!
ok. i dont know.

dint eat any breakfast n sugar today morning D: D: D: !
i felt so tired on the bus i nearly cldnt get down. so retarded.
got a little miss giggles book :D ! ty to u-noe-who (:
it cheered my day a little. until the point when three of us collapsed on the LT chairs. cuz we were all blardy freaking tired!
SLEEP, not oil, is the most scarce resource ever D;
den during p.e it came back again ! rahhh. i have been trying to sustain n not to relapse but aiya! why like that!
i shall bring sweets everyday ! and drink the bleh-eww-chokes soup even if its so bleh-eww-chokes.
i shall repay erwan the four rounds on another day (:

den lessons were ok. chem prac was okay too.
budden i got quite worried about math phy tests coming soon, and phy SPA is like this sat lahz!
its seriously taking tests after tests D:
i hate it but its gud cuz it really forces u to revise every topic.
PIA ARHH.

when u are tired, nth ever works for u.
reminder to friends n myself: do hw more consistently so that u wont have to burn midnight oil. and so that u can sleep more :D :D :D

i shall go do my phy tut ! tanwei very nice to us nowadays :)
and vectors iii qn ten if not ahnia will scold D:
haha. bye people.

im at gp lesson now (:
hahaha :D :D

im in lurve with this solo !

this post is for u bro.
haha ytd was the first time ever that i ever talked to u on msn siax. we finally dint need to bicker over who gets to use the com now that i have my lappy.
but still, u better get me wireless soon since u're the com expert.
aniwae. u wanna join CO dizi ehh? haha den u better play well leh ! or i can suan u like mad (:
u owe me lots for waking u up today okay. where is my mcspicy treat that u promised !!?
haha okay lah, other than the days when u are so farkedup u are a fun bro (:
say thank you!

:D

i dunno what to say and thank you doesnt seem to fit the bill..
but REALLY, thank you people !

thank you..
for reaching out to me when i was trying to hide,
for helping me up when i was down,
for comforting me when i felt like i was torn apart..

i will never forget how the h.p gang waited patiently for me, and were there to give me support and make me smile again. thanks for the letter and messages!
neither can i ever express my gratitude enough to my classmates: kx ck wq sm, who reached out to me and showed that they cared; through messages, emails and blog posts.
these little actions go a long way to help me recover, and really sorry for making yall worry !!

i managed to keep myself in control and tried to smile and laugh as usual..especially since the juniors were around and i dint want to seem indifferent and hostile.
at first it was a chore and a challenge,
but gradually as the time passed i was back again.. (:
im too easily influenced by random and funny people ((:
plus the appeal interviews kept me busy and took my mind off imagining things...

after band prac was a super long exco meeting that lasted like four hours. GOODNESS.
budden we managed to settle quite a number of pressing issues on our agenda so yay!

then i went for a retail therapy session. really.
with ms little mr, mr little ms and mr lazy.
me n mr little ms wanted to buy my bag and theresa's shirt thingy and his pig shirt.
ms little mr was there cuz gang outing is compulsory. LOL.
but mr lazy had no mission at all. haha.

in the end my retail therapy session was completed without my bag !!
cuz it was SOLD OUT D: D: D: D: D:
but i bought a top and colourful socks and theresa's shirt (:
and we all had a yummy dinner at pastamania!
haha it was COMBO day so we wore matching shirts, we ordered matching combos, we ordered matching soups, we chose matching pastas and we all ordered spicy chicken.
have u ever read the label on the tabasco sauce bottle?

it cant really be seen from here but the last few lines say:
"a few drops add a little flavour. a lot of drops add a lot of life."
i dont have much life, but son aka mrlazy had alot of life as usual.
carmen oso had alot of life sia.

and son doesnt like peas.

and son said that somebody is "very girl". so in the end he got the name of mrlittlems. how true.
the verygirl person is super dumb oso. u owe us for splashing water on us D:

then we were talking about the beautiful sunday concert which is the day directly after etude, which is going to be hardcore if we still plan to perform for alumni.
then dunno how we talked about moving alot and nodding heads on stage, falling asleep and dropping off the stage, and even a snoring solo!
hell it was funny. i dunno how to tell jokes so it probably isnt to u.
but i laughed so much i think i was getting a hell lot better !

the next fun thing was about the converse shoe son spotted.
the design is called WHITEPAINT. and the price was a hefty 159.
son who has a diploma on naming names gave the shoe a name. PAINTPAIN.
cuz it is like blue paint design and pain pain price.
on the cab ride to jp we were psychoing mrlilms to sell his ex limited edition shoe to buy us all a PAINTPAIN each! the shoe is really very nice !!!

aniwae finally got to jp at 11. goodness.
saw vicki at the interchange :)
den WALKED to the new house trailing behind my brother who RODE. cuz my old house is flooded, so have to move in advance.
YAY my new bed !!!!!!!!!!!!!

had a gud nite's sleep although im still sore that i missed the two wuzongxian shows D:D:D:D:D:

now im feeling okay le and planning to attack some carriedforwarded-ed-ed-ed-ed homework. u guys made it possible ! ganxie nimen.

the only thing is that i dunno if u care or ever cared..

im getting increasingly concerned about friends around me..
normally cheery people, people who make me lmao, people who seemed almost carefree, they actually have their fair share of troubles, that we couldnt detect at all usually.
we humans really think and reflect ALOT. especially at times when we are alone, when we have nothing to do, or when the weather reflects our mood.
supposedly reflections make u a better person cuz u probably wont commit the same mistakes again.
but when people do reflect, it is highly possible for us to start to get depressed.
i realise when i dwell on issues, things just get more and more horrible.
but cuz im so retarded, i get easily distracted from emoing by random jokes here and there.
or maybe its bcuz i dont expect much of myself at times, and i have a bad habit of taking the easier way out..
but of cuz for issues in which i have high expectations, im hard on myself like shit.
sommore when u're alr feeling like shit, circumstances tend to take advantage of u and give u another hard kick, or deal u a greater blow.
and it really hurts like hell when nobody understands, when nobody cares or even when people do show concern, u are thankful but dont feel like they can help at all..
so i can feel what yall are feeling now..at least to some extent...
well, jiayou people :D !! be strong and overcome this (: (: (: !!


on another note, im not christian but god bless grandpa! really hope nth will happen to him...

i have a really comfortable new bed at my new house.
no its not that kind of super soft and cosy ones where u can jump and fall into.
nonetheless its super nice. even without bedsheets!
it is the newest nemesis to homework piaing and revising for that physics test tmr.
im officially moving in on 31jan cuz my parents wanted an auspicious day.
bed, i'll miss u !
so long ~ i have to go bury my face in phy notes.

now that the chem test is over and horribly screwed as well, somehow i feel a sense of relief. WHEW.
i still have more ahead of me ! lump jiayou arh !

life is like ERRRRHHHHHHHH. ARGGGGGHHHHH. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. as usual.
but it has to go on.

and blardy hell is there phy test tmr ?
PLEASE, NOOOOOO!

im really grateful for friends around me who make me laugh and cheer me up when im down (: h.p gang, my class peeps, etc. it makes a sucky jc year two life less unbearable by loads.

to a friend: never give up cuz we havent gave up on u. welcome back anytime!

im feeling so lost and desperate.
and i am running out of reasons.
reasons to go to school, reasons to go for band, reasons to go wake up every morning to see my own retarded face in the mirror and feel like fading off into nothingness, reasons to continue studying all these crap that im not interested in, reasons to make myself think i can (cuz i cant) juz go learn flute alone, reasons to make myself seemingly happy all the while, reasons to hold on to everything precious that life gives.

the only reason left is that i really want to be a better person, to be somebody i want myself to be, and to continue believing in what i believe in.

i believed that every single ounce of effort can make some difference, to ur own n others' lives. or maybe i once believed that.
i think what i have been believing in has failed me.

things are starting to collapse on me now.
first its the workload, that i only have myself to blame, for procrastinating during the holidays and not being conscientious enough when school reopened.
secondly its about friends and family. things are getting from bad to worse for that matter. and in the meantime, family matters are like a roller coaster ride, or a high frequency swing; one minute everybody's jolly, the next we scream till the entire neighbourhood hears.
my new neighbours? i pity u.
third: its my brain. its running wild and imagining all the WCS. worst case scenarios. its hasnt been so active before. had it always been working so well i wont have a problem with problem one.

my blog is starting to become the place where i rant whenever i get an emotion overload. its like my dumping ground for emotional garbage. im so sorry blog, that u're full of crap.

now i feel better. but still. i can never dump away the fact that i still have one econs essay uncompleted, and the freaking chem test to study for.

seconds later i might be back again seeking reprieve before i pull my hair out or decide to do something dumb.

well well well. band prac is as usual. i really hope to come to band prac and see a genuine smile on idiot's face. havent been seeing his idiotic smile for eternity. now only left xy to joke ard with me during sectionals and erzi to talk crap and make me laugh during combined. other than that im juz praying for the rest of the time. xi wang zao ri yu guo tian qin (:

aniwae carmen was funny again as usual. she made us laugh so much i think all the calories we consumed at curry wok was laughed off. first it was the fact that her junior acknowledged that her beauty surpasses a certain someone. then it was the thing abt british ladies with their umbrellas and their favourite topic, the weather. oh my goodness.

oh. i vow to get my zinc bag next week. MUZ!
plus i muz get ready to laugh at jh when he buys that puremilk pig shirt. HAHA. jk.

next thing was a really harmonious family dinner. my god.
my brother even paid for the bbq stingray and lemon teas. though its not HIS money aniwaes. haha.
and he was mockingly pissed when the auntie called him xiaodi.
obviously he minds it alot. like ALOT.
*acts grumpy* "why cant i be DADI" and sings, huan ying da di hui chun...
BRRRRRRRRR. it was minus twenty degrees celcius suddenly.
then he kept retelling the story of his cip today.
n how he was staring at his friend(male)'s bum and hence fell into the drain.
oh well.
it was hilarious lah. haha :D

so in the end i got home so late (too late) for mugging, but so in time for wu zong xian !
haha two shows in a row! oh yea! this is why saturday is my fav day of the week.
but tmr muz pia le D:

jiayou everybody ! for chem test or piaing homework :D D::D D:

hi people, im back, alive and kicking (:
my fever is finally history :D
a big thanks to those who sent me messages and stuff (: i think they work somehow. haha.
especially carmen ! her message is undeniably the funniest :D :D :D
i laughed so much my mom thought i went siao from my fever
maybe i laughed and scared some germs away ;D
its really important to stay healthy and feeling good! otherwise every else everything in ur life stinks.

i was really very angry with my brother the other day.
but ya, zhen me dou shi yi jia ren. the message he sent me just now was so funny, i decided to forgive him.
and NO, he hasnt said SORRY yet.
but nvmind, life is too short to bear grudges. it makes life terrible not only for others but for urself too.

and aniwae, chem test is the real killer thats after my life. its accomplices are math, phy tutorials and the vice mastermind is gp aq.
holy.

and to ehem. we will never and have never started to distance u. but we really have no idea of the next step to take...so we are all behind u yea. whenever and wherever u have found a solution (which is not what is happening now), well, welcome back (: !

censored as it violated my policy of life.
(:

highlights of the day :D

phy lecture by mr yong ! he gave a really cool demonstration using a touch lamp and a plasma ball! the entire LT was like, lights out!

if the demo wasnt that cool i would have been dozing off zzz. slept quite late last nite to pia smth. haha aniwaes it was really interesting and funny! mr yong was like, bang bang on the table, den the lamp will vary in brightness. den he said "BRIGHT", "BRIGHTER", "OFF", the lamp will also change its lighting! damn cool :D

otherwise school was quite boring. another thing worth mentioning is carmen's potential to become a soccer player ! lol.


she kicked the chair until it knocked the pile of metal thingies and one of them actually FLEW OFF. lol.
zai rite.

oh, everybody stay happy or get happy okay :D
im off to do my homework le D:

got tagged by kax !

List out top 5 presents you want for your birthday:
one: miyazawa 402 ! haha im juz being crazy D:
two: for friends ard me to be happy :D no emoing!
three: maybe a new bag
four: something cuddly
five: ehh.

Answer the following questions
haha look at first sentence

Your relationship with her is?
my dear! lol. classmate bandmate gudfrens

Your impression of her?
happy-go-lucky, very high de. lol.

The most memorable thing she has done for you?
hmm. dunno leh, but we have been thru thick n thin tgt haha. jcone year was traumatising.

If she becomes your lover, you will...?
have to be male first

If she becomes your lover, things she have to improve?
but im not male.

If she becomes your enemy, you will...?
become her enemy. replying like im replying english qn. lol. jk
i dont make enemies with people de. i dont like to hate people to that extent :/

If she becomes your enemy, the reason is?
no enemies please!

Your overall impression of her?
smile smile n laugh laugh. considerate n nice.

How do you think people around you will think about you?
dunno leh. muz tag other people to noe.

What do you love about ur character?
i dont love myself enough to know that.

On the contrary, the character you hate?
stubborness n bad temper


The most ideal person you want to be is?
whoa, let me think first.

For people who care & like you, say something to them?
"something". haha ok lame. smile alwaes !

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel
1. carmen
2. jiahao
3. andrew
4. lisa
5. yuxin
6. fujian
7. ahnia
8. mayqi
9. emily
10.caining

the kashiwa band concert was really really really to the power of infinity fabulously, fantastically, awesomely, jaw-droppingly, heart-movingly good !
every cent that i spent on this concert ticket was worthwhile (:
firstly, with no doubt, the band already sounds like some professional band, way past a local high school band's standard.
secondly, other than being proficient in playing their instruments, band members did so many cool gimmicks and band dancers danced like dancer-dancers. LOL.
aiya my vocabulary is just so limited i dunno how to describe how i felt as i sat thru the concert. it was just, like, MAGIC.
im super impressed with the piccoloist ! she is freaking zai ! such a round, full, solid tone with really good intonation ! wow wow wow wow wow.

plus it was a perfect coincidence that jan's bdae was on the concert day, n they played n sang happy bdae to u ! HAPPY BDAE WUJIAFAN :D haha

after the concert we went out to secretly plan a surprise for jan haha.
i was supposed to like distract her lah, so my first plan was to say i needed to go to the washroom, so i got her to go with her. haha failed cuz they havent found the place to buy a cake.
then the second plan, mastermind = son I, was to meet "jinhern" at the taxi stand, where i really dunno where the goddamn hell it is, so jan had to take me there again.haha. aniwae when we came back to mac they had the cake ready ! so yea, operation surprise succeeded :D


her bdae cake!


group photo



ytd had bball session before band prac! my shooting still suck but hopefully im getting it back. for the good of jiahao, we played four versus one! haha the moron still managed to score quite a number lorr. ren da zhi jiu shi zhe yang. LOL. jk.
son II is a very responsible chap. although he's a slacker at home as said by his borhter, he actually helped to mop the floor when the benches leaked grimey water. lol.
aniwae ytd was a spooky day. firstly jiahao saw "me" at the nj bus stop. that person had an uncanny 95% resemblance to me ! my goodness. dont let me see her or i'll freak out n shout "CLONE! IMPOSER!"
second thing was that sheryan n mayqi heard the jazz suite sax when the bandroom was locked, jiahao was playing bball, and nobody from band was playing the saxophone. CREEPY!
band prac was okay i guess. finally had a bigger band.
the oboe n trombone junior are quite good i guess, from what i heard myself n from wad others said so far (:
yay, more juniors come okay :D

then after that some of us had a group lunch at hk cafe 18. and we all had a common concern, so we talked for quite long about it, came to several conclusions, but had no real solution.
it was quite warm plus the fan breeze was so comforting we were all getting drowsy. so we had to leave quickly before we fall asleep face flat on the empty dishes D:

then jh carmen me went bugis to shop for smth. walked ard until seven plus n finally got the stuff we wanted (:

carmen said only me n her can go pass. if jiahao wanted to cross, NOO. if he want he muz go tall street.
i wanted to shop so badly! haha. i needed to buy more clothes, pumps/flats, n a new bag! haha but i was really broke, plus we had a task at hand (: !
still all three of us got distracted by this really really really cute to the power of inifinity duckie ! can u believe it, the mini tiny one was like 7.40 and the larger (larger only, not large at all) was thirty over bucks ! AWWWWWWWWWWWW.


i want the tiny duckie D: !


rahh need to pia homework now. adios !

these few days have been serious diaphragm exercise :D
thanks to son II, carmen, simin, shibin, etc.

stayed back on thurs to slack in the bandroom :)
it was really fun but HE was busy emo-ing n ignoring us.
u could have joined us. but u kept declining n everything. we dunno wad to do anymore. isnt there a way the problem can be solved ? but definitely wad is happening rite now is NOT THE SOLUTION. everyday it gets worse. the section is no longer a section anymore....is this what u want?

adjectives to describe carmen: funny, hilarious, amusing, spastic, man.
haha MEN is very nice cuz she pei us crap talk and entertained me n jh for so long with her stories about her n her family. super furnie lah!
if we film what happens in her house we cant make a comedy liao.
my son II is a joker. haha. he has the pro-est shuffling skill in the world.
and its called Pro-shuffling.


it is simply PIACK. n all the cards are on the floor.
grace n ek were busy trying to do very very "CHIM" card tricks that we totally cant see through :D
we also invented a new game called DAIDI-CHEAT. i cant believe we came out with such an ingenious idea. we ought to get a patent for it.

and jiahao needs a roof over his head or he'll feel uneasy. what a nice roof.

next is simin (: a very nice partner to run with during p.e :D
everytime we get tired of laughing before we get tired of running lah!
if we get out of breath its probably not bcuz our stamina is that bad but bcuz we juz cant stop laughing. LOL.
for today's p.e we were laughing about wad mr tong said abt BABY CLOTHES. HAHA.

den shibin was the clown during chem lesson at the lab the other day.
he finished presenting his answer, den started scribbling stuff like
"SHHH, im wasting ink", or his theory of height = 1/smartness, and thats why mr ng is smarter than him, n not to forget writing "cindy is fat" when i said walao. WALAO.
if u look close enuf u can see it on the board.

have been playing bball these two days :D ! finally i get to play bball :D
bus trips home these few days are quite fun, cuz always got company, ppl to talk with and joke with...

the sad thing is that u had to do this. everybody is like really concerned n trying to do something. but the problem is we dont even know what is the actual problem!

school has resumed for almost two weeks now, n im surviving. wow.
seriously i havent tried leaving so much holiday homework undone before D:
its like rite now i still have my gp aq articles to complete ! i'll get it done asap cuz ms chua is a really nice gp teacher :D

den abt the new topics being taught; most lectures for math n phy im catching no ball. haha if there's anything that i can blame its the blardy aircon blasting away.
its like minus dunno how many degrees in the LTs. BBBBRRRRR.
as for tutorials i have been trying to do as many questions as i can. thanks to carmen ! haha with ur wksht i can at least try to figure out how to do some by myself.
and i have been quite lucky. cuz when the teachers are looking for ppl to go up and answer qns they always pick me for the qns that i at least know how to do n got the correct answer. whew.

as for band the last week i suddenly got a fuller tone ! and i went totally sharp compared to my past no pulling out mouthpiece alignment. haha good or bad?
but i went back flatter again this week D: and i lost that embochure liaoz.
muz be bcuz last week played for whole day den missed the right alignment le.
haha, muz experiment n find it back!

i have decided not to write anything emo in my post, although band today sucked to the core. it wont help the situation too.

listening to persis now! im in luv with the oboe solo.

and i'll strive to prepare more for tutorials and catch up on my work!
cuz from wad we discussed on the bus trip home, there's really ALOT to do!
jiayou everyone!

but one thing for sure i still wanna go shopping!
havent bought my new year's clothes yet D:
who wanna go shop with me :D ?

new year celebration was fun !
but new year is starting to suck already D:
i wanted to blog about ytd, but apparently today sucked too much n spoiled my entire mood
i mean doing homework on the last day of hols is bad enuf !
who needs more depressing stuff to go along with it ?!

this new school year is going to suck like shit D:
how am i going to survive ???!!!
TELL ME !!

yesterday was SPARKS VI！
it rawked but i suck.

first it started off with a very enjoyable bus ride. haha we were laughing all the way there! flutes is the noisiest section once again :D
rehearsal was fine, tuning was fine, everything was fine.

then the PEOPLE came. THE PEOPLE = my beloved section(s)
first my nj chicken section ! oh my goodness i <3 the balloon !
i liked it so much i taught it how to play the flute.

and the balloon is so pro it tilts its head like the holy god sir james galway.
tankew lisa n section!!

these people are the best supporters on earth.

next up is my rv fluterflies!
NOOOOOOOO we dint manage to take a section photo. AWWWWWWW.
wanwen sharlene dan ah beng shujie tiantian jinhern xintong
n ah beng looks a little like dan now.
wanwen gave me chocs n xintong gave me flowers :D thank you thank you !!

got flowers from gm, dan.tiff.huijuan too :D
thank thanks :D !

got more chocs from jiahao n wensi
xie xie :D !

aniwae here comes to the part of how i suck.
practices: i was playing fine.
rehearsal: i was playing fine

concert: i totally sucked.

i dunno why! maybe i was a little nervous. but it wasnt the nervousness that made me shake like shit!
my hands were tembling like nobody's business lah! it was crazy!
oh man its the first time my condition made me like this.
being anaemic sucks. totally. bigtime.
i screwed the solo juz like this.
just when i tot i could finally play a decently audible solo after i changed my embochure recently.
SUCKS.SUCKS.SUCKS.
in my five years of playing i havent play any solo to my liking yet.
rv syf: blah tone, blah phrasing, loud but eww
nj syf: ok tone, ok phrasing, sorry cant hear u
sparks (the one with stabat): ok tone, sorry cant hear u
etude: blah tone.
sparks VI: blah tone, blah phrasing, blah air, plus horrible tremble

its like a nightmare u noe?
a nightmare that comes to haunt u every nite,
telling u, hey u screwed it up again n u never will do well.

my dearest flutes, i have done u injustice.
im sorry.

kaes, enough of emo-ing.

for the second half my trembling condition was better
my son very xiao xun siax, he bought me red bull cuz sugar content very high
not bad ehh, at least never tremble so badly le.

the funniest things happened during the stage band n intermission while we were slacking.
jiahui is the funniest Filipino ever.
cuz jiahui n zhengguo were like imitating accents, n it was hilarious!

the next funniest thing had to be the timely kneel of sherry while we were asking ms chan to take a photo with us.
ms chan was like stunned ! only a photo, dont need kneel to beg me ! ROFL.
it turned out to be that yige stepped on sherry's foot when she wasnt wearing any shoe (shoe too small, painful)
damn funny!!

ms chan was quite happy conducting the concert ytd :D
she was like smiling while she conducted :))

but i ruined that part for her.
OH CRAP.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
later i had supper with sherry, her mom, n her friend.
it was a good meal n it was nice talking to them.
but there's still a thorn pricking me lah.

WTF. this thorn will never go away unless the next solo is played to perfection.
n i dont have much chances left.

meanwhile, the homework crisis is more worth giving attention to.
therefore, adios.

section xmas outing rawked :D :D !

it started with the greatly awaited appearance of big boss in her RED attire,
while her subordinates are all decked in white. COOL.
sorries for being so bad ! but it was fun rite :) !!

haha aniwae she made us model !







and then we went mos burger for milk tea ! nice !
i believe the aunty likes my son alot. lol.
mich she was like touching his hair n stuff! AHHH!
haha. more pictures !
the last two are THE BEST. in fact, the LAST ONE. TOTALLY ;D






next was neoprints taking at cineleisure :D
actually we wanted to catch ALVIN n the chipmunks. ROFL.
but i being blind n without my hao peng you specs is the culprit for ruining the plan D: sorries!
then we wanted to buy a section-thing but aww the punk caps were ex
but still we had fun taking neoprints!

the most ingenious photo was the one using the sweets as flutes !

and then we had pasta mania for dinner!
i think the chicken in spicy chicken pasta is really nice :P yum
we depleted really quite a bit of cheese. lol.

next, it was cards n table soccer at boss's house
and boss had to have a cigar before that.


haha, no lah. it was actually rolled paper. but it looked so much like the real thing rite! heehee.

and we finally played cards!

on the ironing board sommore :D
my son is a B. he always calls me as his parter when i only have ONE or two of that suit. haha.
it was damn fun! lisa is still the best bridge partner ever :D
and lisa's sister will be the best table soccer player n question-asker.

when she saw our section photos she was like,
"oh, cute... ehh why are you (lisa) wearing RED?"
next was..
"oh, wad happened to your face!!"
and we laughed till we couldnt laugh more.

thanks for all the fun today people !
hols are ending D: sad to the power of infinity
homework is untouched. dead to the power of DIED-ED.

im back from my outing with my bros :D
we walked the entire orchard ! haha. without buying anything. good endurance from temptation rite (: ?
(oh and the world is small again. we saw alot of rvians, xiangyin n amelia (: )
haha though i got my pay check le but its not ready in cold hard cash ):
sobs, thats why no shopping spree for me as of yet!
and i suddenly realised that when i graduate, i'll have no flute to somewhat call my own D:
i shall work n slave to earn some three or four k to buy one ! :O

i have the entire weekend booked ! more excuses not to do homework (: and not exactly a good thing too !

fri: new house cleaning works + shiyi n mich bdae ceb !
sat: section outing :D + alumni band prac
sun: alumni band prac

i juz saw my newly fixed wardrobe the other day (:
it is absolutely stunning. so much that it compensates for the fact that my room is smaller than the esplanade lift, by a certain percent.
lurve it totally, thanks dad !

i feel a fever n sore throat coming. the weather is juz killing me.

hey people im back from my band fest hiatus (:

it was really a blessing that i was able to join the honour band, though its rather unfair to others who auditioned..
but i hope i had put in equally much effort in practising for the pieces during the entire duration of the band festival to try to perfect the pieces n present a gud concert (:

dr tony is a freaking gud conductor :D !
i totally lurve the way he shapes the music n his combined practises are always so hilarious (:
he totally never fails to entertain us !
i've learnt so much from these four days then i ever could in four weeks of usual band practice, seriously.
plus its a totally different experience playing in a band with higher standards, where members are competent with both their techbique n musicality.
the rj trumpeters n oboe player in particular, were really good (: !
haha n there's ac flute god ernest! lol, the world is small, he graduated from VS with tj flute god!
Der Traum des Ogenhus is a really impressive piece :O
i totally loved the grand crescendo done by the percuz which leads the band to the main theme of the song
El camino real is needless to say, crazy n wild !

im starting to miss band fest alr D:
and it feels weird not to have band prac today D:
if only there's more time to know more people n stuff

heres the honour band flute section :D





tankew people for making band fest memorable for me (:
n thanks alvin ernest for the cards n christine shu qi for the chocs (:

one last thing: red blazers are like, ewww! lol.

wads before ban jia :D ?
its da sao chu D: !!

haha my room for ten years plus is like full of rubbish but oso alot of sentimental stuff !

i collected quite alot of letters from my pri n sec skool days, like the ones from my cousins from malaysia, cards from pri skool mates, frens in 2C n letters from flute seniors !

wahh i just felt like crying when i re-read some of them, emo EMO !
haha this is the box in which i kept all my letters (:

letters from my cousin ! he's damn nice cuz he saved his pocket money to buy nice nice envelopes for me (:
oh n this are the small gifts from my cousin (biao di)


my netball days. lol.
sherry's personalised present wrapping paper ! super nice :D
letter from another cousin ! her handwritting is superb n the paper is self-decorated but it looks as though it is a printed card !!

hmm. the letter that i have hidden for a long time. one of the sweetest letters ever (:

letter from gm the flute god!

letter from xinlnig n peiwen!

letter from CINDY to cindy (big to small) :D

i made this myself :D when i was in the band-crazy phase.

my flute grades ! those mini tests are so scary de.

the phone i got from my dearest frens for my 15th bdae ! damn nice of them (:


the piece which me ant n jh always pia as a sec one noob. lol. very nice de.

my first band piece ever. i want to laugh.

the last moments of PW !

byebye pw !

poor piggie had a hole after my mama voluntarily washed it out of kindness

bdae card from darcie ! her drawing is damn nice :D


wow this is only the tip of the iceberg ok. cant believe i had so much stuff to keep n so much rubbish to dump ! i have one entire box of sec skool notes n textbooks pending to be offered to the garang-guni so if anybody dont mind having them tell mieeeee :D

end of story: happy bdae mom again n may everything be fine *keeping fingers crossed*
i wish gud health to grandpa n may the evil people who cheated my aunt fall into the toilet bowl n get flushed for infinite times :P

adios.

i realised that i havent been helping my parents in sharing their troubles n burden

home has always been a retreat for me;
a place forever there for me to rant my unhappiness n frustrations,
a place for me to share my joy n laughter

however, i havent been there to listen to their rants..
i was only there when there was my share of joy n fun

WHERE HAVE I BEEN WHEN THEY WERE IN NEED OF SUPPORT ?

today is my mom's birthday. i dint see her in the morning when i woke up cuz she has already went out for her yoga lesson.
so lalala me n my bro did the housework as part of the traditional bdae package n i started making a card for her (:

when she came back pushing her bike up the stairs, she looked so weak n worn out by fatigue. it seemed all wrong. we were supposed to meet a cheery her n shout happy birthday or smth.

the heavy rain drenched the bike n the bags of food she took away for us. i wasnt so sure whether the drops on her faced were raindrops or tears
i knew they were tears.

back in the house she broke the bad news. she said that my granny told her that my aunt was cheated of all her savings by some insurance company. again.

what a blow. first it was the news abt aquisition of our block due to the en bloc thing,
next it was the call saying that my grandfather contracted cancer n had not long to live
then it was my aunt, who had remained single n worked her entire life,
just to let some of her other heartless siblings feed off her, n be cheated of her hard-earned savings bcuz she was kind-hearted

i felt so helpless cuz there wasnt any way i could help her or my aunt..

but anyway, more light-hearted stuff coming up (:
this is the card i made for my mom :D haha nice rite! say its nice



this is my new house !

the view from my room

the colour of my room ? yet to be confirmed D:

here i speak with the experience of being a sales promoter of four days (:
sounds cliche but i really learnt alot from working these four days
manZ i have never approached so many strangers in my entire life, let alone having to make small talk with them while pushing sales !
i started my first day with absolutely no confidence nor knowledge about the gadgets im actually selling ! do u have any idea how unnerved i was by juz thinking about wadehell i can actually tell the customers D: ?
maybe: hi u buying a laptop ? buy from me lah. buy from me or else my pay's gonna be really really pathetic D:
haha. jk. aniwaes my two lao ban, gary n leslie are really nice bosses n their briefing helped alot in boosting my understanding of the laptops. plus, the seniors xufeng (though very qian bian), rachel, silin n shuenchuan are really nice n helpful. the latter three especially, were very friendly n encouraging. fellow newcomers were also easy to talk to, and so we were able to give each other moral support
with much luck, i managed to close five deals on the first day !!!
my goodness i tot i'll juz go home with my basic pay of thirty D:
i guess alot depends on luck, cuz its like opportunity cost
u serve this customer, another potential one goes to another fellow promoter. whether u get to close the deal not only depend on ur gift of the gab, but whether the customer is serious about buying straight away or maybe juz trying to noe more n make comparisons with other brands.

i still remember my first customer, two guys who were buying laptops for business use. they intend to buy eights sets from different brands, so when they heard my offer of one of compaq's exclusive models, they were like, ok, cheap n gud, deal.
oh my god, i nearly fainted ! they RAWK.
another customer whom i remember is a lady with a super adorable son. i asked him how old he was, so he actually stuck out seven fingers in that so innocent n cute way. damn cute lah (: (: (:
plus the auntie bought two laptops from me. so whoa i was damn lucky.

there are cases of very gud promoters who dint manage to close any deals for the day, not bcuz they are not convincing, but just short of luck n a gud strategic position at the booth

i was kept really busy, till i forgot about lunch
so i had dinner at ten plus, when the booth finally closed for the day. a bonus is that the food is really quite gud :D yum!
by the end of the first day, i could finally tell customers the specifications of a laptop without having to keep looking at the brochure itself. however at the end of the first day i was close to being lame, as in my legs.
they were so sore n numb all i wanted was to sit on the mrt for eternity n not get down. bcuz for the entire day, all of us havent even sat down for a single sec. even during lunch or breaktimes.
it may seem like nothing, since we aint like doing heavy manual work or anything.
but man, seriously, the ache is comparable to my past netball trainings

by the second day, as the routine repeats, u juz feel like quitting.
but i had really gud sales on fri ! maybe bcuz i was in a gud mood, so i dint look as dao as i seem when im emotionless. many ppl tell me that when im not smiling, i actually look like glum lum D:
i was in a gud mood cuz of my friends ! kaixin dropped by to see me though she was busy with work too(:
plus carman n andrew came to visit me lah! so nice of them to come all the way.
n idiot got me gummies though i was just jk. lucky gummies ! i shared them with my other promoters, then that day i got quite alot of sales, n samantha oso got her first sale after eating the gummies.

the third day wasnt so gud. i finally met some really hardcore bargainers, who would ask for three free gifts after u relent n promise two.
from a customer's point of view, they are here at SITEX, working their way thru the crowd to get to all the differents booth, to compare n negotiate, n ultimately the rationale for all these work is to get a gud deal.
so in any case, if they are insistent on getting what they think is a gud deal, the theory of the customer is always right is really true.
hence although sometimes i get really fed-up and pissed i cant throw my temper like i ALWAYS do at home. i can understand their point of view lah, so all i can do is apologise for not being able to meet their terms n forgo the sales lorr.

so pretty much of that happened on saturday. i was expecting better sales since its a weekday, but i ended up with number of deals similar to the first day.
well, quite depressing, but at least i tried my best bahz.
plus some customers i met are really patient n nice.
one of them, a young miss actually went all the way to tanah merah to withdraw cash to pay her laptop !
another sir came back a few times to enquire about wireless settings to buy the desktop from me
really nice ppl !

rahh i cant really remember what other things happened.
the last day, though it started off as badly with zero sales for quite a long time
but i was strangly happy, cuz it was the last day !!!
say byebye to one hr plus mrt rides, reaching home at 1230 n sleeping at 130, waking up at 7 and standing for 12 hrs, and talk until hoarse !!!!!!!

by the last day i was ranting all the specifications like a machine
it was oso the day when i met all the really bargain until i totally give up customers. the longest was like total one hour with all the repeat journeys they took to compare every offer competitors gave with mc.2 's offers.
whoa i tell u i was close to kicking them, but of cuz muz still remain calm with that tight smile D:
haha but yea i dont blame them for wanting to get the best deal lah.
hmmm. so yupp.
aniwae for the last day i closed most of the deals with customers of other races.
most of my customers were indian gentlemens n they were nice ppl. erps, including the one who pinched my cheek when i offered them another freebie after much bargaining. ouch.
the only chinese customer was jiahao's mum whom i mistook as his aunt. oh man.
one of the fastest deals closed :D thank you thank you !
the fastest was a return customers from the day before ! in three mins settled :DD

i dint chiong until the very end, had dinner at ard ten with some of the rest who oso sou gong-ed lol (:
then my family came, n my bro was so spastic rachel was laughing damn hard when she saw him telling me abt his oh so terible day plus alot of action
den my dad n mum forked out money to let me buy the compaq V3633 model !
thanks boss for giving me the bundle of freebies :D
YAY :D :D :D
regardless of how many deals i closed, the entire experience n reward that this four working days gave me made me really really sastified n happy. hao you cheng jiu gan ohh !!

when i left the expo hall,
out into the open, seeing the city lights n not the hall lights,
grass n concrete panels n not the stranded brochures on the floor,
i dunno why i felt so sad leaving..
i tot i was glad to have a rest at last..
when i flopped into my dad's car, after talking n crapping abt our new house..
i pretended like im was resting cuz i was too tired..
but actually a tear dropped,
and rolled so slowly down my cheek...
and i dunno wad it was for...
happiness? sadness ?

thank you compaq n mc.2 (:



hmmm. alrite enuf of my boring entry ! i shall update on my visit to my new house today the next time !! very exciting okays !

i have alot to blog about but u noe wad i dont get the time to blog !!
bcuz my parents feel that blogging is a sin!! n msn is juz PLAIN MURDER.
bcuz u're not supposed to touch the holy saint-like PC unless u have HOMEWORK to do :P
or the only application u're supposed to open is like FRIGGIN MICROSOFT WORDS !
DAMNIT LAH.
haha aniwae im still here. zai rite ;D
well, for the time being only lah. RAHH.

tmr, i say goodbye to my not-really-got-life life, cuz im gonna go work
have to miss three band practices including nie n alumni D: BLARDY !
and say sayonara to many many possible outings with my gangs !
ok lah, at least i'll get some working experience, get to noe more nice people,
while getting to noe more rotten people haha, and earning some pay to cover my a**. ( cuz im seriously broke. kashiwa concert 29 bucks i havent pay yet D: !! )
erms, ok, earning some dough to buy chow.
erms, ok, earning some money to buy stuff i want? ok this sounds better.
anybody wanna contribute to the holyshit LUMP fund can go down to expo hall 5 thurs to sunday n buy a (more oso can) compaq laptop from me, me, and me only. LOL :)

i have a love-hate relationship with the honour band thing.
lubbs it, cuz its gonna to fun playing challenging pieces n meeting flute gods etc n getting thrashed or owning if thats ever possible. plus i managed to escape from the ordeal of audition. el camino real, cool!
hate it, cuz the chickens wont be in the same band with me, n maybe the entire experience will turn out to be ridiculously sucky. el camino fake, WADEHELL!

im so done with arguing with a certain idiot, where i tell u, only one greatest biggest idiot exist. HAHA.
ok lorr, perfatly fine, let u win the VERBAL argument.
but u noe perfectly well that it aint the truth alrite?
everybody are zai in their own ways.
forget about A,B,C are better than me in this, this, n this!
bcuz u can be better than them in that, that, n that!
SEEEEE. if u cant, well, u're an idiot, cant blame u rite! LOL.

n moron-saur! hope u're finding ur way to LIGHT :D
we're waiting for ya to come breakie or dinner or outing soon :D!
jiayou jiayou jiayou !

next up, jiaojie !! HAPPIE BDAE :D
dont noe if u'll ever see this though D:
but nevertheless hope u had a fun celebration with the other jie meis n sorry for my absence T_T !

n my other jiemeis, the ahma n auntie n yr
haiya muz squeeze out at least one day go out tgt with yall leh :D !!
will contact yall asap !

n not forgetting my wujiayou di n wujiafan ge!
sorry ehh alwaes cant make it for the outings D:
will meet up with yall too (: !


my post very long rite ? bobian, told ya after today i no life le yea D: ?
oh next is seniors farewell thing !
one for lisa the big boss, one for all the band seniors :D !
so many schedules clashing ! work, nj cum nie band, alumni band, chingay cip, farewell dinner.
WAHH. uhoh. DIE.


before i die i promote my alumni band concert first can ? LOL.
erm, sparks VI 29 Dec, VCH, 730pm, 12 stall, 15 circle.
come ah come ah (: ! xie xie da jia, wo qu si le. (CHOY)

there are pending videos n soundclips of my SONS'BEAUTIFUL SINGING VOICE N PLAYING,
which will unfortunately be uploaded much later :D
and i dunno why the videos cant be seen from my last entry, and they took damn long to load sommore! haha nvmind next time bahz.

OH CLASS CHALET!! osevenstwotwo rawks :D
though boon lay to pasir ris is like a freaking long journey for all of us i think it was worth every bit !
luckily i had wenki n fujian to pei me on the ride there, we spent the whole time crapping haha (:
den we had lunch at whitesands kopitiam, where we met waikit
n wenki is on a new food craze again, this time its FUJIAN xia mien. LOL.
aniwaes the real fj is very shocked that we two windowshop very quickly HAHA.
maybe its bcuz we're so broke nth is registered as affordable hence explaning our godspeed lol
den we stopped by at the arcade, where fj danced parapara and got the topscore on the machine sia. whoa-ah. applause ppl (:
aniwaes yada yada we met up with the rest of the gang n off we go, to our chalet venue
haha ok lorr, we tricked them the last time at kaixin's house so this time they purposely took a detour and made us go round n round the place before we finally reached.
lalala then we played werewolves which was quite funny
tralala then bbq, the food was gud, n chee came with his gf haha
here's a video to jazz things up abit :D



so yay mr chee will remain as our ct !! WOOTS :D

den later in the nite we sent off wenki n fj. wenki, being an ahma, is utterly shocked by this swimming pool peekaboo glass thing


den of cuz we got ahma to help us buy some alcohol first hee :)
not beer lah, like max five percent only lol
so we drank n played cards, drank n played cards, drank n played cards,(the rest played stacko)





at first we were still quite normal, maybe a little more keesiao then usual
we were like adding terms from pangya to bridge. OH MANZ.
then xiuwan arh, not he laughing at nth, laugh until cannot stop haha
then..after sometime we arent really sure we were seeing doubles
yet still, jiangwei is able to crack all his intellectual jokes lahz
fun fun fun fun fun !!

ok i dont think my entry is comprehensible. zzzz. sleepy. shall update on chalet part two next time ! haha (:

P.K gang motto : Lets BRIDGE our future together with all our HEARTS, regardless of all opposition and barriers, we will fight it all away with our SPADE and CLUB at hand, finding DIAMONDS in the process and ACEing the way through. -created by m-saur

haha i see light ! seems like yu guo tian qin le :D ok lame.
aniwaes: VIDEOS PART II ! carman are u excited ??

this video is about u leh!!










she sits like a man
CARDS
h.strawberries unite
carman's strawberry was so H it fell rite thru the fork
zeyi ate only nuts n choc thru out
semi wiped clean bowl

ok that leaves me with three last videos to upload. hmm.

friends have been the best things that happened to me..
my crazy sec skool section, fluterflies, n the CACTUS family, lol
i still remember how we used to have super long dinners, doing spastic stuff n laughing our heads off
my sec skool clique, who go home together almost everyday
now, my jie mei clique! haha we lurve going out to makan n playing at toyrus
den my fab class, n a wonderful pw group..i think this is the best class i've ever been to
den my current section, crazy n random, warm n friendly
n the newly founded H.P gang!

LIFE'S GREAT :D

class chalet is like, TMR!
god, i havent packed anything yet!! RAHHHHHHHHHHH
i think it'll be damn fun! n i wont be home for.. three days?
is that gud or bad? haha. bro i noe u wont miss me for sure (:
ehh u still owe me a tutorial on com stuff so that i wont screw up on my job kaes!

after class chalet will be intensive alumni prac! n chingay cip which may clash with alumni D: ! n there's bandfest too. wahhhhh. not to mention that pile of homework that is collecting dust?

OH WELL, LIFE is semi great.

TADA! the uploading of videos n pictures for the HANKY-PANKY gang :D

first of all, some brief history of the gang, LOL.

the H.P gang first started out with frequent breakfasting n carding.
they are proud to be the randomest, lamest, craziest n dumbest.
cuz either they are retarded, idiotic, or they'll be moronic or spas
they go on all sorts of random shopping trips, where they chanced upon alot of things

for example, the gang were strolling along orchard, intending to go douby gout, to buy SOCKS
instead, being as dumb as they are, they went the wrong direction instead,
but who cares, cuz they saw mr ho,

and m-saur's dad who was conducting his band :D

hence they camped n picnic-ed, eating kfc n treating mrho to a big bao LOL
they oso had no reservations with shouting n clapping when the band played Instant Concert (: !


below are videos n pictures of our gang's first trip to westmall's swensens, sadly, without our horniest gangster spastic, aka the MAN.
of cuz they will miss her so they made sure she doesnt miss out on anything!








did andrew finally eat egg?

mushroom (: ?

of cuz they oso created quite a mess with the available weapons of destruction they can find, including the tea light which reminded them of chem spa,



not all the videos are uploaded yet so stay tuned ! haha :D

oh i forgot to blog abt meeting shuyu on the bus :D long time no see, my senior !
HAHA now i've got new info to suan AH VIN with

im starting today afresh :)
totally hecking about things that shouldnt be brought up ever again (u should too)
starts off with alumni prac from one to five later
i hope my killer sore throat will be gone D:
then dinner later with the HANKY-PANKY gang LOL
we muz have full attendance okae, if u noe wad i mean

my bro finally got another talent recognised
u may ask wads the first; its being the ultimate pain in the neck LOL
okay lah, sometimes he can be really nice. SOMETIMES.
the second is of cuz his com n robotic skillls lah
he came home with news of getting first in some competition siaz (: !
apparently he's gonna be on the newspapers n channelnewsasia
cool, im proud of u, asshole (:

oh videos! haha carmen i shall upload them the next time okok :D
oh n i muz thank jiahao n zeyi for ytd (:
jiahao for pei-ing me thru out the entire journey there n back
n bearing with my bad choices of taking bus instead of train plus bad choice of bus oso! lol, the traffic was crazy near the customs
zeyi for being our road guide n helping us out! if not me=lu chi will lead jiahao to wrong paths again

i wanted to upload the funny videos we took that day at swensens, but today's events just contradict the mood..
(carMAN u'll have to wait a little more :) )

i juz couldnt bring myself to juz take that step forward. if i had, and just abandoned all my insecurities, just go there, even if i get kicked out by oura or wadeva, i think everything would have turn out to be more light-hearted and fun..totally unlike what proceeded later..

u ran away from us..just took any bus that came along the way..just to avoid us...this is the first chicky delivery plan that failed, u dint check it out..not that we blame u for not wanting to see us..whoever was in ur position wldnt have the mood to..we just hope u'll cheerful n crazying again soon
(:

sat was freaking fun !!
i wanted to blog straight but due to two major obstacles i couldnt:
1)zhou gong chanting: go to sleep, go to ...zzz..zzz
2)dad hiding the computer cable D:

aniwaes. HAPPY BDAE MR HO :D

holy, it was a hell lot of fun !
we rode bikes, (with mr ho too!!), RAN down slides (refer below n u'll noe why), played at the beach, toasted marshmallows, took videos, n really played like a wild little kid who havent been out of doors for ages
how true it is, we still are kids in some way..
there alot to say abt the whole event but nvmind, let the pictures n videos do the job







be a nice guy den u can buy that shirt
lalala who am i (: ?


looking for carMAN

the slide that doesnt slide!

my new bedroom to be layout?

im so bored nowadays,
its like i actually have alot of work to do, but i juz hecking abt all the homework n stuff D:
i wanna go out n play cards !!

ytd was the first band prac in ages!!
oh we're gonna try out new pieces !
haha all i remember was stamping the NIE logo on the scores!!
lol i think mr ho was close to vomiting blood when i cldnt understand his instructions at first
mr ho: cindy....stamp..*points to the stand*
me: huh, stand? *walks to the stand, going to carry it*
haha im sorry! so im not juz only semi-blind, im hard of hearing too!
D:

den after band kax yr me went toys'r'us !
for : !!!!!!!!!! haha bu ke yi suo :D
very fun ! we played with dominos !
it was alot of hard work n great focus ok!
here's a video :D

n some pictures:


ah ma kax is happy being hit :D ?

ah ma oso needs dentures or else she cant eat her yummy steak

yingrui, like wenqi, likes to sit on the floor

monkey, gorilla chimpanzee!

actually there are more pictures!
but cannot gong kai u noe u noe!


adios :D

here's ur bdae post in advance cuz by tmr we'll be too busy having fun emo-ing somewhere :D

HAPPIE BDAE KAIXIN :D !

yoyoyo kaixin ! aini!
it has been a year since our friendship truly started
there were ups n downs, we had fun, n we emo-ed tgt
we fretted over appeal tgt, we fretted over common test, we stressed for promos
we crapped abt band, clothes, tv, zhongjiyijia, people, frustrations,
we are lefties, we are gamblers,
we are emo, we are lambs,
u helped me up when i was down, i hope i was able to cheer u on too!
u deserve the best bdae ever !!
HAPPIE BDAE TO YA :D

haha sunday's mini class outing was fun :D
the pictures are with kaixin haha,
n e memories THE INTERESTING FACTS are with all seven of us :D !!

ok i think its my first time at thaiexpress (:
the tomyam steamboat thing is yummy :D
n my dear kaixin always getting food for me one, lol,
keep getting food for me she eat what ! haha (:
haha n i still think BAO TODAY;包今天 is a damn cute name !
window shopped quite a deal today n crapped alot too
the arcade game is the highlight manZ n we owned the last song!
its super nice n its yingrui's fav too :D

i think although most of us are from rv,
except for YIFANG the other fellow rvians classmates are like know-ur-face-know-ur-name-but-dont-really-talk LOL.
kaixin was (n still is) fellow bandmate, maybe we conversed once or twice,
wensi was (n still is) oso fellow bandmate n classmate for two years,
chinkeat used to be sec one class-nxt-door mate, n (still is)shitong's scandal haha (:
conan was my fellow sec three adventure camp grp leader, n coincidentally all three of us, mel me him are left handers ! cool rite!

so its funny how fate works,
like me n kax, we used to be fellow school cum band mates but somehow we never had the affinity to meet up n crap like gud friends
hahah its nice to have a fun class !!!

plus today's pw meeting shi slack de lorr
NJ 146, 147,
JIAYOU TMR AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

den den den spent some time after pw to play BRIDGE !!
haha it was really fun although i was a noob for ONLY one round of the game cuz i dint noe who my partner was
one only larh, hahah..
fun fun fun lets play cards at class chalet!
chinkeat n weizong muz teach me how to play hearts arh lol !

alritey time for the last dash to the finishing line of PW !

chicken plan part one was successful (: !!
hope part two will go well too :DD !!

haha mr ho is damn funny!
he was like so serious, like wanting to ask me an extremely important question..
den wad he asked was: cindy...why are u mama?
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
haha i oso have not much of an idea !!
it gets worse when he said: now i know what to call u next time...
OH GOD !
haha aniwaes muz really thank mr ho for making our chicky delivery plan a breeze :D


i think i seriously lack confidence in everything i do
every word i say
every action i take
every decision i make
down to every single thought that has been processed through my brain
i lack confidence in myself
it is hard to even do anything about it
cuz i even lack confidence in believing i can do smth abt it
i feel so crippled..

im worried for my bastard son ):

rahhs, results are finally out, i did ok enough to promote and maths was a total surprise :D !!however its goddamn sad that i still dunno why i dint do that well for phy and econs although really did put alot of effort on this two subjects..








he is oso the main provider of very cold draughts


shibin the zilian pig (: ! haha he's another joker who likes trick ppl

with cards and a pro kia at handphone games lol.

next up, aish! whose face is not successfully taken.

she's the only other girl to laugh with me (:

presenting to you NJ147!

im freakin bored,
and i dunno what to blog.

the reason is simple,
days are passing slower,
life gets suckier,
people get sian-er.

exams are over,
there's no need to be a mugger,
results are to be released,
sooner, or later.
my prospects of promoting gets dimmer,
everytime the lecturer reveals the answers.

im trying not to worry,
but i have a bad feeling im in denial.
im a failure,
so im doomed for sure !!

rahhhhh. i hate myself D;

PW.
PW?
PW,
PW:
PW !!!!!

haha okay i dont really hate it cuz i have a fun group :D !
jiangwei's funny, shibin's funny, aish's nice, daud's nice
so yea, i dont mind chionging for pw if its with nice group mates :D

but i really really really hate oral presentations!!
that shadow never did go away...
RAHHHH D:
well i wouldnt let dear gore-gore n u people down!
CHIONG OP ARH!

life now isnt busy, neither is it slack
life now isnt that sucky, neither is it great
im not really that bored now, neither am i entertained !!

hahahahahahaha okay i admit im bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time to mugmugmug !!!

now that i had a disastrous haircut i bet im not gonna go out of my home unnecessarily!
all the better to MUG D: RAHHHHHHH

bye im on hiatus!


JIAYOU PEOPLE !!

haha i shall blog about my bro wujiayou :) !
yo bro! jiayou for promos la :D

aniwaes today was fun !
haha chem prac was so funny ! wenqi kax talking about random stuff like "衣服" then mr ng will come around saying "okok, later then talk about your "衣服", now continue with your experiment" LOL
and wenqi was so laughing so much she became tired
maths was fun too cuz we got to watch all those short but damn hilarious videos :DD
HAHAHAHAHAHA. TOOT TONE !
phy was fun too! mr tek is the best :) !

im motivated to MUGMUGMUG :D !

random photos galore :D


popsicle imported from korea ! very milky n yummy :)


breadtalk bun ! it has cheese n HASHBROWNS :P


missy donuts from bpp :)


my strawberry !!


balloons that tried to escape in the bandroom long long ago


misty window


poor earth! juz look at the fumes ... tsk tsk


the kitty that jumped onto my head when it heard a dog bark -_-" lol.


my dream bedroom with the platform bed ! with sound absorbers so i can blast my flute hehe


horsey! i miss u !


the car dad zoomed at 140km/h to overtake ! lol. nopes he dint exceed the speed limit D:


end of random post :D mugmugmug !!!!!

haha i shall post upon request ;D LOL

well well well isnt life a piece of shit
sometimes it stinks so much
sometimes it goes quite smoothly
sometimes its juz so hard
LOL TOTALLY GROSS. hahahaha.

my life revolves around two things nowadays: flunking n laughing
WOW the irony D:
i'v been failing every single test lately, so screwed!
yea i did study! but heehee study's never = pass
i guess yupp i'll have to work harder (:

laughing with wenqi over the simplest things is fun!
cuz i dont like to think too much, it juz hurts so
the more i think, the more crude facts i face
and sometimes i juz need an escape route
so i guess it's best to laugh it out
sometimes i think im so lousy,
cuz at times i cant even confront my problems, let alone conquer them

band is never the same anymore
i juz miss them so much, so much, soso much...

LOL today my bro actually said smth of relatively humourous content
well other than "sis, u suck" or "hey i dint crash any com"

*lunch*

cin: hey eat some egg
bro: nahh, eggs are too fatty for me
cin: HUH?
bro: u noe, u noe, EK - not egg

sorry if u dun really get it, rv joke ;)

yay! our very first successful class outing siax!
it was really fun cuz
1) majority turned up
2) there's FOOD
3) n GAMES
4) n LAUGHTER :D

poor yingrui dint really get the games we were playing despite the really really obvious hints ! LOL. big thanks to her cuz she spent so much effort psycho-ing people to go n making the class outing a success :D

some highlights :


after ndc n waiting for the rest in the canteen



then we all cramped onto the bus, including jiangwei n his very long wushi thingy


we bought food ! all waiting to see how much it'll cost hehheh


we spent 145.55 bucks for our food (even after much 'filtering' by jiangwei n xiuwan)


this is bee n this is honey!


yingrui still doesnt get it :)


i think i know! its honey ! yay u finally got it correct !


happy bdae to aish :D !


chunmun the man! cuz he's the only guy willing to use his bare hands to take the charcoal


yummy crabsticks!


getting all the food ready !


jiahui the marinade-n-cook pro :D


arent you hungry :D ?


yummy pizza !


playing BRIDGE with POOH cards YAY!


heehee lets make mr chee lose XD !


he's gonna lose ! haha look at my cards - if only i was playing daidee D:


bloody murder LOL

to end off..

o'sevenstwotwo class photo :D

还有明天

当昨天画上句点,
何不就让它悄悄如烟,
看今天,更光鲜,
别忘了还有明天,
选你将来的志愿,
一步步再慢慢去实现,
不管路有多远,
有多险,有多圈,
在那很美很炫的童话世界,
我还拿着青蛙王子的剑,
来披荆斩棘,去恶除奸,
这感人画面,
为幸福,为明天,
并不一定要实现,
心就会有更辽阔空间,
用想象才能够飞得高飞得远.
当昨天画上句点,
何不就让它悄悄如烟,
看今天,更光鲜,
别忘了还有明天,
选你将来的志愿,
一步步再慢慢去实现,
不管路有多远,
有多险,有多圈,
在这无悔无怨美丽新世界,
我遇见了美丽丑陋的脸,
当酸甜苦辣一一尝遍,
但是我情愿,
为感动,为明天,
痛虽然有深有浅,
泪擦干那就会好一点,
风虽然看不见,
但自由无极限.

dont stop me from getting that hammer. im so going to either bash the com.
or rather, my brother.

ok it all starts with my brother destroying the com to the extent that we had to send it for reformatting and since then for ages i have NO MICROSOFT WORD/PPT to use.
hooray now im barely surviving on OPENOFFICE which is dunno wad rubbish.
since ytd's zero MB memory horror case my dad got so desperate he bought me n my bro a thumbdrive each.
NO IT DOESNT WORK cuz now i still cant save a darn thing cuz the com cant read any pathetic file
(FORGIVE MY LANGUAGE CUZ NOW ITS CLOSE TO TWO AM N SHOULDNT I BE HAVING SOME SHUTEYE???)

i did my gp ppt slides FOUR TIMES my dears, FOUR FREAKING TIMES
save, cannot save
save, HANG
save, cannot save, HANG,
save, cannot save, forget it, print, cannot find printer configuration, HANG

WAHHHHHHHHH T_T
juz when i tot today wasnt such a disaster.
well, today juz became a crisis.

rahhh im really sorry for being such a whiny brat
but seriously WHEN CAN THIS END T_T

oh my tian .

there are like a hundred and one things that make my life sux rite now D:
let me juz name the top ten

1) my bro the "PRO" has been doing dunno wad to the com and now it happily reminds me every five minutes that c drive has 0 MB of storage space left and i should do something about it

2) doing something doesnt help cuz all the ridiculously large yet useless files are in his account

3) his account is password locked

4) there is no more memory for me to save my gp OP

5) i screwed up my phy spa like super badly cuz there is no graph, no table, no comments

6) there's a phy lecture test tmr

7) i forgot n have yet studied

8) so i'll flunk

8) flunkers get to have more remedials

9) i totally have no more time for remedials

10) hooray, life sux D:

plus it doesnt help to have some periodic force of suayness keeping me in the simple harmonic motion of getting sick, den a little better, den getting sick again.

LOL haha okay enough of my sarcasm cuz i better do smth productive other than complain if i wanna pass anything at all :P

bye people off i go to MUGMUGMUG !

i need to thank two saviours who saved me from screwing up chem spa!!
simin for lending me calculator n carmen !

today was such an adventurous day man

uncle says:
"后面是冰箱，你们会死在里面！
走路啦，不要懒惰！"
ROFL :D

the word to describe Etude XXXII
EMO

it was so different from all the concerts i've performed in, cuz
it was our very own concert,
the concert we worked so hard to put up,
the concert we devoted so much time to prepare,
the concert that made us super high n yet ultra depressed at times,
the concert where we perform with our seniors for the first n yet, last time...

all the presents from seniors (POOH <3)
n letters
n hugs
n photo taking

now it is the concert,
that will wont EVER be forgotten :D


special thanks to jiayi, our dance instructor haha:D
she devoted so much of her own free time to teach us n help us improve!
den she bought flowers n made personalised gifts for us sommore
THNKX LOTS :))

to fellow dancers: YAY WE MADE IT
to theresa: thanks for pei-ing me buy the dress n lending me ballet flats n everything :D !
to cheryl: thanks for lending the black shoes in the nick of time :) !

all the people who came to support us n got us flowers,
xie xie ni men !!



to seniors <3

[lisa]
we lurve u !
u've been a totally awesome sl
whose always been doing all the behind-the-scene work
n fighting for our rights etc, haha :D
i'll alwaes rmb the time u bluffed us that u wanna go home to get ur bolster for sleepover at xiangyin's house, but it was actaully to make that lovely syf card for us !!
bridging n daideeing with u was damn fun :DDD!
(we so did not play enuf cards XD ! )
flute one's gonna so empty without u D;
thnks so much for all encouragement n support
n not to forget the fun n laughter u've given us


[yuxin]
the nanny of the section !
n pro harp player :)
full of motherly love haha :D
i'll never forget ur signature moves:
thumbs up
n
*rub eyes* cries !
haha :)
thnks for being a great mentor n senior
who constantly inspires us to mug more LOL
我们爱你哦 !
esp ur son, who is foreva like
我要学我妈妈喝 green tea LOL


[beatrice n lynn]
the oboes !
really cool to have yall as seniors for 4 years from rv to nj :D
thanks for working so hard to play really nice solos
it was FAB having yall in fluboes :D


SOB. six months is NOT enuf .
... 不要走 D:

i just feel like dying .

argggh life sux rite now ):

sat's prac was like, disastrous
no tone, no emotion, wrong notes sommore !
oh my tian. *faints*
haiish, jiayou lumpy n everybody :)
we shall make ETUDE a sucess :D

this whole week is a total mess n i bet next week's gonna be WORSE
Etude's coming, really muz CHIIIOOOOONNNG
plus enrichment n OP make-up on tue will clash like shit
den there's getting back of papers (EWW)
n lessons gonna resume (OUCH!)
pw EoM deadline
maths VA

someone juz kill me rite now ):
hurhur keep ur knife im kiddin

"if u can break (ur curfew) for band, den u can break for us too"
this quite broke my heart-
as in, i noe even back in rv,
im alwaes at band prac, with my section, with the band,
more often than i go out with yall for outings
im really sorry...
i promised to go out with yall tmr,
n i really will okaes ((:
trust me i wont break my promise (:

but this means
class outing


its like really hard make it fair n please everybody

in any case the other party forgone would probably think,
"good lorr, pangseh us for another"

seriously its not anybody's fault
im juz a failure at handling my priorities n stuff,
alwaes disappointing people n upsetting my friends
i noe the word 'sorry' that comes from me isnt of much value
but really, sorry people !!

i really cant let my friends down this time
i dont expect anybody to like, understand my circumstances
but i juz wanna let u people noe that the class means alot to me too
n not going for the outing tmr doesnt make it any less important
really (:

OH MY GOD
hahahahahaha its gonna be OVER.
OH YEA :DDDDD
one more physics prac to go
though it cocerns A level
but heck it feels like holiday now :P

happy bdae andrew !
LOL instead of a cake we had a CHICKEN
blow the candle n cut the chicken !
the coolest ;)
aniwaes. it was really fun cuz common test was a wreck
so screwd larhx. damn tough n agonising
nevermind the torture will be over soon :DDDDDDDDDD

hahaha!
i finally retrieved the photos from my beloved old phone <3
(which unfortunately passed away on 27JAN T_T )
now i shall devote my posts to photo galleries !
first to come up is MY DEAREST FLUTERFLIES :DD
u guys are the best :))



more to come ! stay tune for the next episode :DD
HAHA

PLEASE u should STOP
thinking that its alwaex OTHERS
who made u irritated
who pissed u off
who let u down
who made empty promises
who slacked n left the world on your shoulders
who made u suffer while they played

this pisses me off -

cuz seriously u should take a good look
at others' efforts ,
behind the scenes work ,
n their personal reasons

it aint as simple
as it looks to the eye

hope u understand (:

tankew people :DD
for helping me complete the very not user-friendly survey haha :)
really appreciate it !

aniwaes,
ABC photos finally out!
HAHA inside got alot of unglam ones XD
so furnie

tmr is gonna be one hectic day man
1) go skool earlier for library stuff
2) band prac
3) phy va video
4) stage band dance
5) pw stuff
6) the deadly CTs revision

hmmm

im tired of saying this myself
haha budden really i have totally
ZERO. ZILCH. NONE. KOSONG.
dance genes or cells or whatever.
HAHA.
aniwaes, gonna work hard to knock some coordination into my limbs.
WAHAHA.
pizza n the company was totally awesome :D
tokking about band camp and the exco games
so furnie!
wahhh andrew's gonna pangseh the section for three days!
the lucky bastard III is going LONDON.
hahaha i got back my laogong (flute <3) n my pencil box today!
budden still forgot my specs
AWWWWWWWWW
OH WELL NO HOMEWORK FOR THE DAY DEN
haha i sound so sad rite :DDD
muahahaha.

band camp is over
AGAIN CAN?
hahaha im missing band camp already
it was only three days two nites,
but it seems a rather long time

whee the most gratifying thing was seeing that the food thing didnt screw up (:
although got some problems here and there
but yay hopefully everyone liked the food (:
tankew all food comm ppl, yall are nice to work with !
n ben n bix, who are great mentors n helped us alot with the budget stuff
n lisa n many others who formed a human chain to pass down the chicken chop (:

aniwaes
band camp games were fun :D
paganini won every game for the first day! wooooo
haha although we hmmmmm, faced abit of bad luck later on
we still got third :D !
paganini rawks (:

wahh the election thing quite scary
but whew finally ended
tankew all supported me, clapped or (tried to) laugh at my lame joke
esp my section (: haha
its like going one big round
sounds cliche, but yupp
gonna do my best (;

hahaha
i left my sleeping bag (who lost its cover)
and my pencil box
and my specs
in the bandroom
so now im half blind n cant do my work
great excuses to not mug ;D


stage band dance thingy tmr
wahh i cant dance for NUTS
hmmmmm

HAHA i havent been bridging enuf!
RAHHHHH

econs project is really out to take my life
so horrible ):
to fellow group members:
JIAYOU, WE CAN DO IT
or ,
WE BETTER DO IT BEFORE WE FALL ASLEEP ;D

LOL

ohmgawd
if we're really gonna play october...
YAY to the power of infinity!
one of my dream pieces when i was a junior :)
i luv mr ho <3

first thing to mention:
kaixin my bag is nicer than yours (:
haha juz joking (:

anyways,
very saddening,
my tone is getting from bad to worse,
suddenly became airy.
FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE, AIRY!
for the first time, since sec one!
doomsday's near ):

by the way,
econs varied assessment!
have to really pia,
cuz wont have time to do since mon is band camp
CHIONG ARH LUMPY

on the way,
today very shuay!
waited for 174 for like ages
at least five 74s past
then when it finally came,
EHH , where's my wallet ?
AHHHHHH i left it in the bandroom larhx -_-"
so irritating, walk all the way back
climb stairs n climb stairs n climb stairs
den talk to the gate uncle again

along the way,
when i finally got my wallet,
and got back to the bus stop,
yay 174 came almost immediately!
juz when i was thinking how shuay i was,
it was like consolation prize (:
den i saw my aunt sommore!
i was standing dint see her,
den she was like " ah ting!"
haha whoa so qiao (:
so yay, kidnapped her go my house eat dinner
today my whole family quite good mood sia

the wanwen arhh
not very funny leh
msn use hanyupinyin to converse
whoa read oso very xin ku,
reply oso very xin ku,
haha but quite fun lah :D

shits-
better do econs now (:

i suck.

i dont do homework.
i pon lectures.
i dont listen in class.
i suck as a player.
i piss people off.
i make my parents angry.
i cant get along with my brother.
i make my friends upset.
i screw everything up.


haiz, sorry,
im one big emotional wreck nowadays ._.

wahhhh
lao ba's gonna play for VJ strings ensemble thingy
and sitting right NEXT TO FLUTE GOD
lucky bastard :D !
wahhhhhhhhhhh~
haha.

hahahaha totalllly aawwweesome!
dont need go sisc closing ceremony siax (:
supposed to rehearse for chem proj de
in the end- :D haha
crap talk is so fun!
cant believe it, we can actually talk for sooo long
COOL.

well well
it seems like the older u get
the more troubles u'll have
the more worries u'll harbour in ur mind
the more u get frustrated
all bcuz ur world gets more complicated
all bcuz people change, into mean n scheming creatures

somehow the simple innocence is all gone

so saddening ._.

[ytd]

band prac was cool
fantasy variation ! so much to practise and to keep me occupied (:
ruuuuuunnnnny notes all the way :D
but i wanna play machu D:
haha !

after band had food comm meeting
wahaha shall not tell yall what the special dinner is !
ahh but i think quite a number of yall overheard liao
hmph,
but the rest shall not noe !
:D

then it was BRIDGE
and BRIDGE
and more BRIDGE
<3 !
haha it was so fun
lisa and grace are damn furnie (:
and we managed to lead andrew astray
lalala
i lost my bet of yupi gummy bears
but haha i won ribena/soybean drink :D
COOL

tj concert
before that bought APPLE WORM from breadtalk
super yummy one
ooh the concert was good (:
hymn to the sun was still the best piece out of the entire repertoire
other than FLUTE GOD( as termed by andrew)'s cant take my eyes off you solo
haha other than dearest kungbah flutegod is my second idol!
LOL

wa today was spent doing food comm proposal and pia-ing gpp entirely
tmr got chem va
and band prac
LUMP is a BUSY lump

dunno what happened to my dearest syf post!!
it was so long sommore >_<
aniwaes,
i will never forget ;

chiiiickeeeen!
272 272
jumping bars
pooh <3
esplanade rehearsal ! (MY VERY OWN TAG :D)
三four XD
hungry hungry !
mass singing (of other people's parts!)
BRIDGE !
DAIDEE !
'睡过去'at xiangyin's house :)
chewing gum
peace n <3
GOSH I LOVE MY SECTION !

band life was so hectic
but made my days fulfilling
the fifteen minutes on stage,
whatever the results were,
im proud of njcsb CCCC:
we have come so far
and made the impossible possible
thanks mr ho, shermin, all the seniors and EVERYBODY (:
i luv u people (((:


life without band is so EMPTY
lets start chionging for Etude NOW (:

exactly ONE week left

7 days; 5 more practices

lets blend, gell, move, breathe, cue, play, feel

as A BAND

then,

we can play with no regrets

a really HAPPY birthday indeed (((((:


so many people to thank-
really thank yall for for making my seventeenth (yes i noe im OLD)bdae so memorable
:D

earliest to wish me happie bdae (arent yall honoured?):
10.16pm, 24th: bastard son, ant
1.04am, 25th: andrew
wells has it got anything to do with alphabetic order?

aniwaex lols, andrew's message was classic! esp
"did ur bastard son wish u longevity? i guess not..."

the blurrest bdae wisher:
this has to be awarded to dear junior daniel tan jingheng
"hey cindy, tell me ur bdae is today, and jiazu's tmr"
-_-"
den,
"ahahah. okeh happy birthday!"
very thoughtful. very thoughtful. he actually bothered to confirm.

next up:
THANK YOU :)

jiaxu (happy bdae in advance !)
sheryan
mayqi
mel yeo
jean
sherry

:D

shitong
michell
wenqi
vicki
huipeng
yujiao
shiyi
for the really hip skull necklace that im NOt supposed to wear around my neck ;D

kaixin
yingrui
theresa
for the coolest flute pin ever that yall kena drenched by the rain to buy >-<
tankew so much :D

kaixin again
for the entire bdae package!
so kewl rite
u're a great fren (:

sherry again
for the deathnote vcd
yea ur personalised wrapping paper is damn nice (:
wahh i wanna watch the vcd sooooon

did i tell u i luv my section?
okae im telling u NOW
i LUV MY SECTION (((:
hahahaha.
i was so touched okay,
when lisa came in with the really lovely cake
n the cute little pinky soft toy which im gonna name soon (:
peace n love xiangyin the cake u bought was really awesome :DDD
andrew was like, good chocolate good chocolate
GET WELL SOON:D

4 rounds of bdae song todae :)))))

07S22
jiahao, kakeru, kax, eugene
fluboes
band

lessons were okay
bball during p.e was FUN
band prac sounded GOOD

yay !




u people made my day

syf syf syf syf syf!!!
(:
):
X:
^-^
>_<emo ):
so very sad ):
very sorry lisa!
u did so much for the section
flutez will jiayou de (:

last lap,
its make it or break it




lets make it

yay!
napfa was kewl (:
finally managed to do better for my standing broad jump n sit-n-reach
yipeeeeeee ((:
band prac was great :D
more in tune n together le, yaye
maybe after doing all those sit-ups diaphragm n abs can function better
haha i shall consider doing 100 sit-ups before syf XD
not bad not bad :))
after band ate at the golden rooster place
yummy! but the red tea abit weird x_x
went shopping with kaixin at bp plaza :)
so cool i bought a pair of earrings for one buck
original price is like, 12.90
is that cool or is that cool ?
that left me with 30 cents
is that damn cool or is that damn cool ?
coolest is the music note scotchtape kax bought !
aiyo aiyo. got alot of stuff to do now.
crap, shall blog later
ciao people

rvcband GOLD :D
good job people :)))))
i believe that wadeva u got is not the most important
what i loved most was the process,
n i bet u guys did too :)

thurs actually wanted to go makan with yall de
budden got sectionals
hahas but sectionals was fun! :)
ant andrew jeffrey me
we so hardworking can, stayed until 7pm to practise
HAHA. stop denying it andrew u are like freaking pro
oh my gosh u two catholic high guys are so zai!
can sing all the pieces u played before + harmonisation IN TUNE
hahas aniwaex it seems that we cant get enuf of 272
so dumb we actually split ourselves up to go to the diff floors of the block juz to play 272 again
LOL so retarded. but so fun :)
hahhhs shall work really really hard to the power of infinity
for our gwh :))))))
JIAYOU-

aniwaex, friday the thirteenth
im like, a freak ?
cuz today i feel like im still quite lucky
for gc my com didnt lagggg like hell
got to play bball finally
hmmm,
weird-

tough period ahead !
syf + PI + tutorials + assignments + chem project
wahh SIANx.

mon was a Good Day. no, make that a Great Day (:
1) i didnt screw up my chem prac
2) yay mr chin allowed kaixin n me to sit together for SPA !
thanks thanks (:
3) civics was quite fun- yay mr chee's a much nicer civics tutor
4) sectionals was damn hilarious-
we keep playing like mad, den laughing like mad XD
haha yuxin ur du-diao face is like so funny n cute
andrew treated ant n me to ice-cream. haha ice-cream break ! so cool
our tuning improved n we totally owned 272 :D
5) combined was quite good ((:
6) band snack time! the smiley face doughnut is really yummy <3

but lets make it only a VeryGood Day, cuz ohmygoodness mr ho fell n hurt himself on sat !
hope he's alrite >_<

today is a Bad Day
1) late for econs again
2) lectures so boring
3) rainy day = bad day
4) the syf results that came out was blehhh
5) im gonna fall sick soon
6) chem tutorial very boring
7) im gonna be broke

but conisdering
8) i finally learnt how to play bridge (:
9) my PI didnt fail as terribly as i thought

okay, today shall be a QuiteBad Day .

rahhh i dunno im typing. coughs coughs.

SIANx.
i've got two jolin tsai concert tixs (?!)
aniwaex, DESPERATE to sell !
anybody wanna buy ?
countdown to start of concert: three more hours !!
SIANx.

hahahahahaha!
now i cant stop laughing-
juz now i was replying to shitong's comment,
den the tagboard took the first four alphabets of her name as a vulgarity
and now it becomes ****ong!
sorry if u ppl have found out this long time ago,
but im so amused by this (:

aniwaes, tell u i tink im like super dumb
my first physics practical-
im already oscillating the wrong thing
c'mon,
who noes we're supposed to swing the cardboard
instead of the usual bob that we alwaex swing?
i cldnt figure what is wrong u noe,
until mr chin said "ok, i allow u to take a side-glance at what ur partner is swinging"
THEN i realised kaixin is swinging the cardboard
i muz have become the joke of the day for mr chin,
and maybe all the phy teachers
SIANx.
im one out of the FIVE students who were as ignorant
lucky me has company

listening to all the songs that kaixin sent me now (:
oh my goodness !
hymn to the infinite sky is so damn NICE
nice to the power of nice !
ghost train is so impressive oso!
esp the train accelerating sound effects done by the percuz-
SO KEWL

aniwaex,
gonna jiayou and work really hard
n wow the judges with
internal combustion (: !

may i proudly display all my (pathetic) results for all the lecture tests i have taken so far ;D

maths: 7/30 (this is like, the BEST lah. all thanks to *drumroll*...u noe who)
phy: 5/18 (haha, but i studied kae. wow. )
econs class test: 2/6 (not bad rite)
g.p diagnostic test: 6/13 ( really the best so far (: )
chem: 5/22 (results fresh from the oven! i got study leh! hahas, too bad, im dumb)

aiyoyo. i better develop a second brain.

so much work to do!!

-submission of first PI draft by mon
-physics kinematics assignment
-econs essay
-countless tutorials

oh man, there goes my precious weekend ):

dearest PI, please show urself soon!
how come i cant find u?
现身吧。。

aniwaes, busy trying to prank people instead of doing work
oh, so bad! hahas (:
downstairs some people are doing funeral or smth
goodness how can anyone rest in peace while all that racket in going on?
i mean, with all the dizi n suo-na blasting out of tune,
me in my lil nice coffin which isnt completely sound proof will juz be so restless

be nice to the dead,
give them respect,
no more noise pollution please-
plus, its scaring my PI inspirations away!!
AIYO-

there are days on which i feel really weird.
today is one of the days.
BOO.

hmm i realised i havent been blogging for quite long.
aniwaes so much have happened.
well well, now in 07S22.
difference by only ONE digit, but so much difference actually!
07s21! missing yall already.
turns out that we are a combined class of PCME n PCMEB people.
hmm. okay cool.
dont know many people except for the rvians.
nvmind i have two years to get to know them (:
good thing is though we are sort of odd-combi, our timetable still not bad sia-
can release at 11.40 on friday :D

this week was so damn fun kae!
soooo many free periods-
hence the great GAMBLING GANG was born (;
started out with the trip to coronation plaza to makan
then we decided to buy a pack of cards to pass time
hahas so we bought the 90-cents one(cheapest! hahas ^-^).
and it brought us unlimited fun this week XD
its like every free period, kaixin jan jiahao eugene carmen n me will pia to the bandroom.
mass playing of cards!!
yea daidee is the best :D
reaction time n the scissors-paper-stone game all quite fun too.
still cant really play bridge, haha
its like everytime will laugh like mad!
today had outing to curry wok after skool (:
free flow of rice, kakeru and jiahao were like so high, haha :D
crapped and luffed so much, the table at the end where some business people were discussing
(weird, disucssing business in Curry wok? haha (: kewl)
were glaring at us quite abit. oopsie.
alot of things very funny kaes! but no time to blog all-
really like nj band! the seniors very nice and
band peeps are just so fun to be with :DDDD
and i havent blog about my malaysia trip yet! alot of nice pics to upload u noe!
hahas, next time bah.

tokking about next time,
next week will be like HELL
cuz of this big transition from to slack mania to pia tutorial-n-pw mania.
SIANx.
muz chiong le-
jiayou >_<

its so horrible now-

splitting with the class,
having to adapt to all the changes;
man, how i hate changes )):
will miss 07S21 ' >_< '
yea, will try to chiong back for the perhaps one and last class outing,
but even this cant be for sure-
SIANx.

so saddening-

some of my band buddies are leaving
i dunwan i dunwan!
SIANx.

the only thing keeping my mood up-
is like outings with jan&zuqing
& band perhaps,
but today sick cant go for prac
SIANx.

hope life will get less disgusting-

so many things happened

monday:
last day as a class
yet not all were present
our class photo, a puzzle with pieces missing
watched a video clip for physics instead of tutorials
so damn interesting and cool, cant get the cute tune out of my head
hardcore running for p.e, forgot the tune n couldnt get it back. rrraaahhh.
free games, at last. so funny i laughed until tears came
last lesson with chew, and wow i did my tutorials
early dismissal, outing with wu jia family.
NORBIT. haha, an okay-quite-furnie movie, but slightly sadistic
took neoprints, gonna really treasure them
gonna really miss some people

tuesday:
its totally crazy
even nine pointers lost their place
sian. many friends leaving...
busy day, from break onwards it was all
appeal, sub combi, signature, letter, release form,
yea quite glad i managed to get in
and thanks to the people who had to do all the admin stuff for us
the rest muz jiayou!!!
i wanna see yall back in
dont leave can?

name: 07s21
clan: azara
age: 3 mnths old
strength: 24

status: (X) deceased

even after 6 March,
let the spirit remain in our hearts
never let it die-

yay bballed on tues (:
had my fair share of missing-spree and killing-sprees.
my accuracy still sucks unless i find de right spot ):
but nvmind, quite fun, in the end played for five hours straight dat day.
lol, and ended up with sunburnt cheeks and neck. ouchies.
hahas, now its still damn red. eee.

havent buy graphic calculator yet!
should i buy should i buy?
so ex. lorr.
aniwaes,
hoping to get my hair rebonded by sunday.
hoping not to go report to AC by 7th march.
hoping i'll suddenly develop brains.
hoping for alot of things.

hoping that those above will come true.

hah. the one n only enjoyable lesson today was econs.
ms tan is so nice!! dun wan her to leave ):
aniwaex yay dere was class-cher bonding. no lesson ((:
it was so funny. all the joking n stuff.
not to forget pouring out our grievances n -ehem-'s incompetency.
aha. nvmind-

random post. adios people.

jc life is so damn ultra mega boring.
BORING.
lecture. tutorial. lecture. tutorial.
homework homework homework.
its like sapping energy n life out of me lah.
so my dear people,
enjoy ur sec sch life while u still can man.


ohh n happie bdae huishan :))!!

6th march. bleahhhhhx. torture.
all the best to everyone bahz :)

lotsa things to mention:

happy belated valentines <3!
happy total defence day. duh.
happy bdae to daniel n alvin :D
happy belated bday to guangmian!! XD
happy chinese new year to all :D !

realised i have been really depressed and sulky for the entire past three days
im gonna let it all go
CHEERS ;D

oh man.
i noe i have always been an indecisive person.
but this flaw really hurts real bad when it comes to important stuff
-like choosing pre-uni courses.

the day before i was like,
shit, better start doing my tutorials man
staying in nj means will have to mug hard to catch up.

den one hour into doing homework,
lol, how come this question do wrong arh.
second one also leh.
third one like dunno how to start either.
hoho. give up.

next day, physics and chem lecture
it was like, why am i learning about electrons and how they are attracted to nucleus?
like, examine my flute and say, oh its an alloy of silver and platinum.
why do i have to calculate the velocity of a falling ball?
so that if i want to throw a pen at someone, i would know which angle to throw at,
relative to the wind, so that the resultant force will end up directing the pen at the person's head accurately?

i have my doubts about polytechnics too.
one minute we can be zi high-ing about going to poly,
and being glad that the different courses available will be more flexible towards our career choosing,
haha, actually i have no idea what courses i want either.

throwing the dice (or eraser) doesnt work.
it seems to always end up giving me a 50-50 answer.
any definite answer wouldnt manage to convince me either

so in fact, for a person like me,
who cant study,
cant get the As,
cant determine what to achieve in life,
life can be very pathetic and miserable.

dont follow my footsteps.

juz submitted my JAE choices
really dunno what i was doing
i only felt like putting in one option twelve times
27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S. 27S.
ended up choosing seven.
again, six of which i have no idea why i entered.

its the first time i feel so damn moody over results.
i wldnt want to fall like this ever again-

my results suck.
the first thing i saw was the 4 B3s at the bottom. DISGUSTING.
they totally screwed up my L1R5.
TOTALLY.
whywhywhywhywhy
if only it is ONE point lesser.
feel like crying. not really.
juz need to vent it out.
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.

results coming out soon.
dunwanna know.
dunfeel like knowing.
dunintent to noe.
dunwish to noe.
dunfeel like knowing, again.
ahhhhhhh.

a part of me wants to stay-
so that i can continue coming school early,
sit at the slope near the bandroom with xiangyin
and say HI! MORNING!
and scare all the band members who are climbing up
so that i can finish trying all the flavours
of bubble tea available in that each-a-cup store
so that i have to take hardcore p.e lessons
and grumble while running 2.4km

a part of me finds no point in staying-
esp when so many of my frenz
and ppl i can be crazy and lame with
and ppl i click with
do not have much of an intention to stay

another bit of me-
is thinking if my L1R5 is good enough to save my ass
a seat in the blaring cold LT5

yet another molecule of me-
is thinking wadehell am i doing
taking a science combi in NJ
while im a left-hander,
aka logic-less person
, while arguing about how my non-mugger genes
would probably kill me sooner or later

conclusion.
im torn apart

the weather todae is like so extreme.
it was already quite cold in the morning.
esp during morning assembly
oh ya, and GP lesson.
huishan n i already closed some of the windows lah,
and the wind is like so violent, even the leaves come flying in.
i thought it was going to rain lor.

lessons ended at 11.40 (WHEEEE :D)
went to play bball with class ppl and bandsmen
den it became like super sunny.
lols i tink i sun-burnt my cheeks and nose alil' again.

wahh long time no play, i became rusty again.
my shooting keeps slanting to the left.
lousy lousy.
feel bad everytime i miss.

hmmm i see my pile of homework getting higher n higher.
lol is it juz me or is the syllabus much tougher than 'O's?
cant do all my tutorials.
laaaaa. before i get my results i wont bother to mug.

oh yayayaya now im using my mom's hp!
finally can sms again!!
yay! :D

sorry for whining about my hp for so long.
but the repairman just announced it to be beyond repair!!!!
AHHHHHHH!
the horror!
if it was juz any other phone i wldnt care so much.
but i cant help being sentimental since it was a bdae prez from my rv bandsmen
n my dearest fluterflies!
poor thing, it died young. barely two years old.
may we observe a minute of silence please.

on a lighter note,
band orientation was FUN FUN FUN!

i was in grp Espressivo, n we only got four ppl instead of five.
ahh handicap!

aniwaex the first station was pass the sour power candy.
by the mouth.
at least it was long lah.
den yihong didnt noe dat we cant eat finish the entire strip,
n dat we muz at least leave abit to compare with the other team.
den he like ate the whole thing! FORFEIT XD!
in the end he n jo had to pass a JELLY BEAN for forfeit.
n the jellybean is like super SMALL.
so inevitably there was some, em, contact. LOL.
what a big sacrifice for our grp! thanks guys!
the second station was the one-min skit thing. den there was the ketchup and chilli biscuits and oily flour water which i luckily skipped :D hee.
den the nxt station was dog-n-bone.
lol, watching the team before us play was quite gross. but funny :D
poor lisa was being constantly attacked with egg and butter.
but when it was our turn, it turned out to be really fun! but still gross lah.
i managed to catch an egg,half a toufu n a butter-tomato!
wahaha XD
ended up smelling like, as what lynette said, 'cakey' :D lol.
cos with all the flour, eggs and butter, well, we smelled like we're from delifrance.
n i ate some flour in ernest's station. man, some even got up my nose.
if i ever gonna sneeze, i might sneeze cake out. ewww.
i guess i didnt do a great job swipping all the flour off my face.
and apparently i walked around with a blotch of flour on my lower lip,
until lisa pointed it out to me.
AHHHHH.
lol.

n we had J1 bandsmen bonding!
BBALL <3!!!
long time no play man.

so i went home as a happy lump.
hahas :D

about my handphone, its still in its deep sleep.
sorry ppl, if i havent been repling yall.
no im not trying to AP u hahas.

sectionals ytd was quite fun bahz.
spent most of the time on self-prac (n riverdance <3 !)
and scotch-taping scores :)
lol,xiangyin n her random jokes :D
yea flutes rawk

otherwise school is quite boring.

lecture lecture lecture.
tutorial tutorial tutorial.
homework homework homework.
thank god dere's jan n zuqing to keep me saner with their furnie imitation acts :D
but nvmind, isnt this what school is abt?
endure lump! study hard and...
and...
i dunno.
XD

speaking of 'lump'.
todae's chem tutorial, there was this part about tapping the test tube slightly to 'break up lumps to prevent water from being trapped in the lumps'
lump is a sensitive word to me kaes.
everytime mr ng said the L word i would fidget.
lol.


ahh. end of another week.
'O's results coming out soon.
really hope i can stay,
and hope the class will stay tgt too (:
*fingers crossed*

i never thought of myself as a 'handphone-person'.

now i tink i am.

oh man i miss my hp sooo much.
i need it to wake me up every morning. i hate clocks. so shrill.
i need it to pass time.
sms ppl. call ppl. duh.
play snake II on the bus.

people, if you have a <3

feel my pain.
pray for my handphone. i sincerely thank you.
lol. i noe this is really crap.
adios.

after like a million years i decided to revive my blog :D!
(but im not doing this cuz of my zhutou junior's comment hahas XD)

backtrack abit bahz. alumni band Sparks Winds first concert!
and guess wad i screwed up my solo again. the holding note was..ewwww. lol.
budden still yea i made up my mind to join le.
cuz i <3 ms chan! n all da bandsmen dere are so fun!

nj orientation was quite enjoyable.
although seriously the first three days sucked pretty much.
all talk and no play. literally.
its like introductory lessons and admin talks all day.
super-duper sian.
den nxt week was orientation games and mass dance. at least more fun and wont fall asleep.
yea i tink my OG/class is quite cool. and the OGLs were nice too :)
07S21 rawks!
AZARA rawks!

formal lessons started this week. the pace is like alil' too fast for my laggy brain lor. maybe bcos im too used to being spoon-fed in sec sch.

had nj band prac todae. not bad bahz. todae played set piece and another potential choice piece.
guess wad. i had another solo. yes i screwed up the last note. again.
wahhhhhhhh when can i stop having stage fright?
its like even its like 'good-tone' day, once i get nervous the last note always suffers.
mr ho was very encouraging :) and the other bandsmen too. heyy its the first time ppl ever clapped for me. and a fellow J1 bandsmen actually said my solo melted her heart! gandong gandong!
thanks ppl i vow to work on my solo until i die man! hahas :D

going home was like hell. raining like mad!
no umbrella and i had my flute with me.
thanks eugene for lending us the umbrella!
budden still me and alexandra were soaked thru. terrible weather.
ended up with not even a patch of dryness anywhere.
my hp, scores, flute case, wallet..all kena.
shoes were good enough to keep goldfish.
die lar, the new scores were wet and matted at the edges.
my hp is like in coma now.
wish me luck in operating on my hp.

hols
sighs. what have i done.
my holiday is dying away. i have been doing practically nothing.
not really shopping as much as i want to. broke. lack of financial assistance from mom.
not really bballing. flute outings yes. budden not enuf bballing definitely.
not really working. to be exact not even working. didnt find a job.
but really lagging at home. catching up on tv.
band. alumni band.
practically the summary of my dec hols.
oh wells.
woowee.

transition
gonna like start from sqaure one again.
jc life. hmmm. still quite a mystery.
nj is supposedly like second rv.
budden im a total failure at communicating. tink i'll juz stone on the first day. wahhhh..

feeling crappy todae. lalala. bleahs.

take one step back, sea big sky empty
haiz. no slpover no slpover lor.
fine. they big. they win.
budden todae i still had fun!
laugh until cramp =D
so, oh well, might as well compromise.
win-win situation.

parents
rite. its only a sleepover.
seriously, big deal?
its not like i have never been to any. as if it will kill me.
and hey im still alive and kicking now isnt it?
why do they have to restrain me from having fun?
ruining a perfect day everytime by calling and making a hell of a big fuss?

kaes. i noe they are have the right to be worried. there is nothing to worry about
they have the right to make me obey their rules. i want a vote in my own life
they are genuinely concerned about me. right, then let me go.

and they say if i will never understand, until i have children of my own in the future.

wadeva. im too pissed to bother. they may be right.

back to life
went for alumni prac on sat. wahhh im glad to survive sightreading.
aniwaex it feels good to play music as a band again. albeit being rather rusty at playing and feeling the tension from sitting next to a pro. ARGHH.

sunday was fun!
did u noe?
if tissue reacts with dry ice it will form ice?
(according to sherry the *ehem* genius)
Ti (s) + CO2 (s) --> H2O (s)
wow. hahas no offence. but dat was so damn funny.
but kena mass spammed by cold ice wasnt dat hilarious animore. BRRRRR.
yea playing cards was so fun!
dun mind playing cards tong xiao.
wahhh hope i can go for sleepover!! prayin hard!!
bball-section gang rawks.
parents su*k big time. hmph.

i cant believe it
its over yea?
ITS OVER.
gonna burn all my books. but it wldnt be nice to cause haze.
better still, dump them on my brother.
YES.

hist was FRIGGIN hell.
but nevermind, the most impt thing is,
no more homework.
no more muggin.
no more piaing.
no more exams.
bloody fetch

let the whole world rejoice.

whee!
ahahaha. 2 more days n dats it ^-^
dump the mountain of wkshts and books n say sayonara.
jiayyyyyoooouuuu!

todae's phys is much easier than prelims can!
but sadded cos i flopped my practical. blehx.

nvmind, last two days le, do my best then,then,then

BBALL!
BAND!
SHOP!
SLACK!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD


remarks: blogger is currently suffering from near-post-exam syndrome. ignoring her craziness is recommended.

the ultimate big trick

老天 likes to make fun of you for the mistakes u've committed.

i rarely get to be in the right mood for serious pia-all-the-way mugging.
but todae i am! (yahrite, since when)
budden this incident destroyed my entire day which i assumed i could have done quite a bit of muggin. all my fault T_T

whole long story....

sat went library with mom to see if i can find smth to brush up abit on modernworldhist.
then mom took out the things in my bag to put in my bro's library book, supposingly to help him return.
pls lor, im never gonna lug his heavy com programming book for him. esp when he claims the thickness of his books proves his superiority and that my inferior not-thick books are junk.
so i dumped his book. and realised hey, my bag is virtually empty.
well, i thought mom left them on my desk. so, heck.

todae, i was packing my bag for tmr's amaths exam, then woohoo, where's my entry proof and IC?

"MOM!!!"

frenzy.
frantically looking for the missing items.
i was like mega-psyched out.
mom claims she didnt even touch my bag.
X. she did but in the end it is that true she didnt misplace it.

(cos apparently I DID.)

at this very particular moment when mom n i are so gek,
admin staff from the school called.

AHHHHHH! i left it in school or smth on friday. after emaths.
STUPID ME x_x
the admin staff lady was so nice! didnt scold me or anything.
i havta retrieve it on tue from general office. THANK GOD :D

sorry sorry mom :)


remark: this entry is totally incomprehensible. the blogger was not in the right state of mind and mildly insane.